I used to be severely overweight, I lost about 100 pounds in the past year and a half and I'm now a personal trainer. I've been at uni for 2,5 years and never had a girl approached me in public, in lectures, etc or asked me anything. Which is fair enough, I know looks are very important, not blaming anyone, just mentioning that I had never received attention.
During the second semester in my first year, I asked a girl who was in one of my seminar groups and who I regularly chatted to and went on walks with (I wanted to start losing weight and she offered to start walking with me) on a date. She was polite when she rejected me, said she wasn't interested so I never mentioned it again and I tried to avoid her for a while to get my head straight.
Fast forward next semester (early Sept.) and her close friend is one of my flatmates as I had to move halls. She's nice and all but wasn't aware I still liked her friend. We started getting to know each other and I told her I was still sad her friend had rejected me that I really like her, and I asked her a bunch of questions about her (mind you I was still fat then).
She grew impatient and told me point-black that she is not for me. I was like ''why, we got on very well, she's sweet'' etc so she showed me one of their fb conversations where her friend said basically that she wouldn't go out with me because I was fat and looked like "Jack Black with bigger tits".
I assume she did it to help me but I had never felt worse in my life. I hadn't cried for a long time but I did that afternoon when I was by myself (not ashamed of it either, I was in deep pain). It still hurts like a ***** as I type this.
The girl I liked has started messaging me again (it was me who avoided her after she rejected me so she's technically not doing something weird or wrong, she said we should be friends when she rejected me) and liking a few of my pics.
I don't know if she likes me or not, she told me she's single when we were talking on fb and wants to go for a walk for old times sake ''now that you've become so fit" (she liked few pics of me in the gym).
I dislike her a lot but I don't wanna say it because really she hasn't done anything wrong by not liking me. I still hate her though and can't seem to be able to put it behind me.
What can I do? is it normal to feel this way? am I overreacting? I don't want to be in contact with her, it makes me feel horrible knowing how she felt about me but I also am not the person to ignore or delete/block people without explanations.