Allah is testing u...
He us testing whether or not u will keep ur faith in him
Keep all faith in him, do everything u can, pray, read the Quran, make lots of dua during ramadan, go to masjid...
Focus on urself, isolate urself from friends and family if u have to, focus on ur I'm an this ramadan
I will give u advice from what I know on these relationships...(I'm not judging u, I'm just giving advice)
In the quran it says that ur meant to lower ur gaze from the opposite sex...basically since ur not married to them and to prevent sinful feelings
Im assuming u think its OK to (basically) 'date' as long as ur intention is marriage...ur not alone, a lot of men think this...but then are u looking for love islamically? Are the women ur looking for good with their Iman? Do they have mahrams with them if/when u meet? Do u do things the islam way?
(I'm not rly educated on this next part but) when my mum was on marriage sites and going to marriage events she always had a mahram and nvr went alone...she did those prayers when she met someone where Allah wud show u a sign thru a dream to see if the men were good for her and her iman...she eventually met someone this way and they've been married for a few yrs now
What I'm suggesting is researching islamic ways to find a partner...maybe this way u will have more luck as ur putting ur trust in Allah and solely in Allah to find a suitable wife u will benefit from and who ull be married to for a long time
Here's some links u may find useful on these matters:
U will find this one very useful
https://www.alislam.org/library/book/pathway-to-paradise/islamic-marriage-system/ -On this link it says:
•PREMARITAL CONDUCT
It should be perfectly clear by now that Islam does not permit sexual relations, even preliminary acts of physical love, outside of marriage. To remain sexually inactive and chaste before marriage is an extremely important injunction in the Holy Qur’an. Adultery, fornication and
having secret relationships with the opposite sex is a heinous moral lapse which is categorically condemned in the strongest terms by Islam. This prohibition includes dating, secret paramours and experimental living together. As these are regarded as heavy sins, they carry severe penalties. (See Holy Qur’an, 24:3-4).As you have already read in Chapter 2, the Holy Qur’an has provided the means for maintaining chastity. It
directs believing men and women to restrain themselves from looking at each so openly as to be sexually excited by them. It further directs them to restrain their ears from listening to flirtatious and tempting talk and to avoid occasions which might lead to temptation. Fasting, dieting and exercise also help to control passions and maintain chastity.
It also says: “
Some people marry for beauty, others for rank, and others for wealth; but you should marry a good and pious woman.”Perhaps if u follow the Islamic teachings rather than ur own opinion, Allah will grant u a good wife who will love u
(None of what I said was stated in a rude way and I hope I haven't offended u...I'm simply trying to guide u and do what's best for u)
May Allah guide us all ❤