✨reaching for a starinthenight:a multiyear gyg✨

are you doing a level work for the sciences or just going over some gcse content?

Update-8/07/21
Sometimes I feel like 2\3 friends is enough and other times I'm like nah I need way more and sometimes I don't want anyone . It's weird I'm ngl. So one day I'll be like I don't want to meet up with those friends and then I'll regret the decision I made a week ago.Also I feel like I can't fully trust any of my friends. Like the prospect that one day they might turn against u or they might be using u for something or judging u behind ur back. I like friends but sometimes they become an effort to keep and that's when I start doubting whether I should keep a friendship. For example in year 7 i was best friends with 6 ppl and that number certainly dropped to 3/6 as soon as I came to year10 and now I'm in year 11 going to hear 12 wondering whether I should just roll with random ppl in sixth form because I now only think I'm compatible with 1 of them because of the different culture and backgrounds I have to the other ppl and sometimes I can't relate to what they r talking about and so I zone out and laugh occasionally. like ik some ppl get driving licenses etc at this she but that's just not a south Asian thing to do. It's also weird because ppl expect me to be a funny really sociable person but sometimes in a convo I just want to huddle in the corner of my bedroom cuz I don't get the joke or the convo. Like sure I make the jokes in Spanish doesn't mean I want to be friends with u. I just thought it was funny in the moment to say out loud and make others laugh. Betrayal is also a common theme in a friendship and I noticed that if I let betrayals slide one by one then I end up having a toxic relationship with the person in meant to be friends with and I don't notice until I'm exploding with anger about something they've done recently then notice on that's a common trend. I hate it especially when friends pretend to act so cool towards you aka they pretend not to be studying they bring out party photos from ages ago and say it was from last Friday the day be4 mocks just to make u comfortable in it mind that ur studying ur heart out but in reality so are they .then they end up with a better score than u.
My rant is over I hope someone out there will relate


I'm terms of learning stuff I need to
Write out answers for interview qs
Draft a personal statement
Do pass medicine ucat
Do tutoring chem hwk
B io quizlets
Chem quizlets


60days left *where is the time going I swear I had 90

Honestly where do i begin...

I can relate to everything you said and feel. The ambiguity of not knowing if your friends are truly your friends until the moment strikes where they show their true colours. If there's one thing I've learnt in year 11 it's that you can never be too careful with the way you display yourself to others. From reading your ENTIRE GYG I have gotten the sense that you take everything you do seriously and I guess getting the the grades you want whilst having that amazing work ethic just shows that you aren't the issue, THEY ARE. This clearly isn't the kinda friendship that anybody wants. My advice would be to get yourself out of that friendship because if you don't you won't be able to start your new chapter into adulthood because you'll be in this constant cycle of denial.(but if you feel like you wanna stay with them u can). Once you start sixth form everything will change because everybody changes and matures. External students will hopefully start coming and you will find your kind of people in no time. I guess what I'm trying to say is don't let those people get the better of you - know your self worth because you are worth so much more than a toxic and petty friendship that doesn't make you happy. Stressing out about a friendship won't get you anywhere when it comes to society in general so don't hold back in making decisions that you feel is right and is best suited to you.

YOLO - you only live once so live your best life.

Also I also want to start my personal statement as you know - you can never start to early.
I wanna be a midwife or an obstetrician (leaning towards being a midwife since there are a lot of sectors within midwifery that would cater to my interests).
Just one thing, what do I even write in my personal statement???

It's supposed to be a good 3 - 5 pages of me basically selling myself but I'm not really good at that.

Any tips?

Have you got a job rn during the summer?
I was just wondering…