since i got her at the start of year 11 (i’m in year 12 now) i’ve felt really comfortable around this teacher and she stopped teaching me science when i took essay subjects for my a levels but we end up hanging out during my study periods or after school about three times a week, i tell her almost everything and she knows a lot about me and i think i know a fair bit about her. i can’t help opening up to her sometimes, she’s just really safe and supportive and the only word i can use to associate with her is comfortable tbh. she knows i’m really attached to her (i’ve said as much) and even if i hadn’t said it’s really obvious, lots of people say i have a crush on her or something and it’s not really that, she just makes me feel really happy and it’s so nice having somewhere at school where i feel like i can be fully myself because nothing ever changes in her office and we have a nice pattern of ranting and chatting. she told me near the end of March that she’s getting a new job at a different school in September and i cried a lot (which isn’t anything new, she’s seen me cry loads i think i’m just a very emotional person) but yeah i haven’t been taking it well. i keep thinking of some new teacher coming in and using her room and it’s really overwhelming thinking of being stuck at school with no escape any more. i’m not sure she realises how much she’s helped me, or if she does, she might be trying to be more distant because it’ll help me in the long run when i eventually don’t see her again, but yeah i really hate change and she’s the one thing that’s stayed the same since year 11 and it’s very overwhelming. i also get really frustrated because it’s not fair i have a stupid attachment to a teacher who probably thinks i’m really annoying and who has loads of other students go look after, but i can’t help how i feel i just wish i’d get attached to someone my own age who’d be as equally intense idk. i also hate how people keep being like “she’s just a teacher” because i’m allowed to miss whoever i want, like it’s difficult thinking i’m never going to see someone i like again in four months. i’d just like some tips on how to deal with this i guess? and i’m too shy to ask her to keep in contact when she leaves because she doesn’t like texting so 1) she’d probably say no (and that’d be so depressing) and 2) she’s going to have hundreds more students to look after at her new school so she doesn’t need to be burdened with some random from her old school. sorry this is so long haha : , )