lonely

excluding my mum and brother I literally have no one, no one to text, no one to call, no one to go cinema and concerts with. I try be friendly and approachable at uni by starting conversations but it seems like my presence isn't welcomed how can I make friends if people don't want to be friends with me. being bullied in the past doesnt help when I want to approach people and when I do you know the feeling when someone just wants you to go away. I'm not totally miserable though, I went to a concert by myself yesterday (sure its sad but I was there for the artists anyway) people gave me some nasty looks but I was able to ignore because I didn't want them ruining my mood, I was excited for the performances. my mum thinks I have friends I always lie and say I'm surrounded with people when really I'm on my own, whether its at uni, going to the cinema etc. its easy to talk with people online but if they knew how I looked I doubt they'd want to be my friend. argh its frustrating but oh well just have to keep trying I suppose