I realise that i am always imagining romantic scenarios in my head as i have never been in a relationship before and i think i am low key desperate for romantic attention at this point, yet i am not emotional and know i wouldn't let anybody close to me so easy.
am i setting unrealistic standards? yes i want a relationship, but i want to know the person as a friend first, and that doesn't seem like its happening. I am a shy and introverted person and think i have a fear of intimacy, so all in all i don't seem to be doing myself any favours :/
it is lame to be imagining scenarios all the time? i am trying to stop as i think i am making myself feel even more lonely tbh and making unrealistic scenarios that probably wont reflect reality oop.