I moved into halls late, just before the Christmas holidays, and I can't seem to get past my awkwardness around my flatmates! I asked to go in mixed sex but it's actually an all girls flat, and already quite a strong clique seems to be established, whilst the others are quiet like myself and mostly seem to do their own thing.
The group are usually together 24/7, there's a kitchen which is the only communal area and it's like the atmosphere just changes when I go in there. On my first day I said hi and tried to introduce myself a bit, I'm studying this etc etc. It seemed ok, but nobody was or has been forward about getting to know me, as in no knocks on my door just to say hello or inviting me to join whatever it is they are doing (unfortunately you can't leave them open unless you buy a stop) etc.
I really am a genuinely nice person but I just feel so shy. My main source of anxiety is the kitchen. When I walk in I either feel like I'm an intruder and just do whatever it is I need to do and go back out, or terribly self conscious. One time I was cooking and I felt as though all eyes were on me, and then there was a smirk and one of the girls asked if I wanted a tissue. (I was quite snuffly and ended up getting a bad cold!
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I was kind of embarrassed and just replied "oh no I'm ok" then again took the food back to my room because I couldn't stand the atmosphere. I just feel so uncomfortable. I'm trying to set goals, maybe sit in the communal area to eat rather than going back to my room all the time so then I will start getting used to them, but I just feel so out of place!