Around 5 months ago I broke up with my gf. We were together for 3 years. It was a messy and bad break up.
After the breakup, I didn't everything you can imagine that I should not do. I pleaded and begged her, constantly messaged her, etc. I became desperate and perhaps obsessed.
The breakup really tore me up and my life very quickly went into a whirlwind of pain and depression.
She cut me off completely from everywhere and I was suffering from anxiety and depression. About 6 weeks ago i gave up and decided I wasn't going to contact her again and so it's been 6 weeks NO CONTACT.
I still feel sad and I miss her everyday. I cry from time to time about her. I know I will never forget her and this pain will always stay with me.
What hurts me more is she moved on so quickly and easily and I couldn't, and I still am damaged by this whole experience.
It really took away all my confidence and if took me months to want to get out of my room and try and live life again.
I will never see her again and that's a sad thought. It was a bad breakup and that hurts more.
I should feel better now but i am not. When will this get easier for me?
I have been trying to stay busy, working a lot to try and keep my mind occupied to prevent thinking about her.
But it just feels like I am running away from my pain and I am avoiding it.
I feel like I am running in circles and I don't feel much motivation in life.
What advice would you give to me?