hi i know this is a bit intense to put on this website but don't know where else to go
i live with my mum and have just found out im pregnant, and arranged to have it terminated in a few days. It's been long enough that i'm having severe symptoms, morning sickness all day long, nausea/no appetite, fatigue, deep depression. I have to hide it because im from a conservative family and relationships are forbidden, let alone sex, accidental pregnancy and the biggest 'sin' to my family, abortion. They have tried to disown me before for a relationship, i spent a year fixing my relationship with them. So they cannot find out. I'm really struggling to hide the symptoms at home, before i knew i was pregnant i thought i was having digestive problems and shared lots of details with my mum. i've had to pretend everything is normal again. she's a midwife and will be all over it.
My body is so exhausted i need to nap in the day and not go anywhere but she constantly comes to my room sniffing around and asking why i'm not doing things. I cannot stand smells and most food.
I'm terrified about how to hide when i get the termination, in case the pain is severe or there are complications like fever or infection. That will be impossible to hide and I'll be thrown out. I have no friends or anywhere else to go. I'm considering booking a hotel elsewhere and pretending i have some job interview in a new city (jobseeking atm) so i can take care of myself in peace after the Dr appointment.
Any tips/advice from anyone about dealing with this till it blows over?