I’m so ****ing stupid… I met this guy online who tried to ask me out and was being very sexual despite knowing I was a minor. He told me he was 19, but there’s still a few years between us so it wasn’t appropriate at all.
I recognised what was happening and told him I had a boyfriend so he backed off mostly, but from time to time still said things like “I want you” and “I love you”. He told me several times to send photos (not explicit, just my face) and I did and I know how stupid that was. He sent me a photo of him as well so I thought it was okay at the time and now I see it wasn’t.
I chose to stay friends with him because he seemed like a decent guy, and I thought he fell for me before he knew how old he was, so I kinda understood that he couldn’t control his attraction. However, I spoke to his ex today and it turns out she’s the same age as me. So he clearly has a habit of doing this…
I’m going to stop speaking to him now because he’s most likely done this to multiple underage girls and it’s just sickening… but I feel like I’ve lost my best friend. I really did trust him and he was a good friend to me, despite pushing it too far.
I’ve just told my boyfriend everything (he knew this guy asked me out, and I mentioned his age and that I’d declined, but I didn’t say that I’d carried on talking to him afterwards so I’ve now admitted that) and I’m a bit scared of how he’ll react. I know I ****ed up badly, not being honest with my bf about who my best friend was, and allowing this “friend” to lead me to trust him, presumably so he could manipulate and groom me.
I feel terrible and I know this was all my fault but… can anyone offer support or advice? I don’t know how to progress from here or how to move on.