So long story short (ish),
This boy I sit next to in some lessons and myself kissed at a party on Saturday (its now Thursday). We were rather intoxicated but not to the point where neither of us were unaware of our choice of action. At the party we'd spent a few hours talking and flirting then he took me on a walk and kissed me. Side-note, he's a great kisser. But I digress.
Basically, I've liked him for quite a while now but it was more of just a slight crush but now when I see around I get full-blown stomach jitters most likely due to the fact that he's a good kisser.
But my problem lies in the fact that I'm very awkward when I like someone (which is rare), I tend to... avoid them like the plague. Which is irrational but alas, c'est moi. Prior to the 'event' we'd been friends, having banter and flirting every now and again but this past week we've been avoiding each other completely, or at least I've been avoiding him like there's no tomorrow. We've had a very limited time in each others presence this week (thank god) but tomorrow is the day I've dreading. I have a double lesson with him, and its one o the lessons where we sit next to each other. For 2 hours.
I've done a pretty good job of avoiding him and I suspect he's noticed me ducking out of a room he's in or turning the other direction if he was there and other silly little nuances I've allowed myself to perform.
I'm scared of sitting next to him tomorrow as I suspect I like him quite a lot more than I'm aware of and a heck of a lot more than he does. Although I don't know if he likes me at all to be frank. My friends keep telling me that he keeps glancing at me and gravitating towards me but that's the sort of thin you expect your friends to say of your crush isn't it? So their judgement is slightly subjective. Moot point.
I've rambled so much. My sincerest apologies. If you've actually read this I thank you with all my heart and I ask you only this: What, for the love of Nora, should I do?