Keep crying

Try to think of something else and keep yourself distracted. That always works for me if Im miserable.

I know I just feel so many different things I can't handle all these emotions. I feel so alone because also it's winter time and these were our best times.

I don't want anyone else but him. He cheated on me and I ended it but I can't help but no want or look or speak to any other boys. My heart is hurting. Yesterday I felt fine today my heart is hurting so much. We've both been so good but so bad to eachother but I have never cheated on him! He has cheated on me and I think he may have cheated multiple times. It's been almost 4 weeks. I just feel sick numb and hurt. I've lost a boyfriend and best friend.

I'm so, so sorry. Betrayal is the worst kind of hurt, and there's nothing wrong with how you're feeling. It sounds like he never deserved you in the first place, but of course it's hard to get around.

You will be okay. Not because you will forget over time, not because another boy will come along, but because you are so much more than his ex. You're defined by everything else. It's okay to cry, but you'll be okay

And there is nothing wrong with you not wanting to look at or speak to other boys. Don't even worry about it. You will look at and speak to other boys when you're ready, and if that isn't right now that's okay. That's completely your choice. You don't need a boy to fill up a place in your life, and you don't have to date again until you're ready. Just realize that you have power here. There's no specific way you're supposed to behave.

Any friend you could call up and speak to?

I'm so, so sorry. Betrayal is the worst kind of hurt, and there's nothing wrong with how you're feeling. It sounds like he never deserved you in the first place, but of course it's hard to get around.

You will be okay. Not because you will forget over time, not because another boy will come along, but because you are so much more than his ex. You're defined by everything else. It's okay to cry, but you'll be okay

And there is nothing wrong with you not wanting to look at or speak to other boys. Don't even worry about it. You will look at and speak to other boys when you're ready, and if that isn't right now that's okay. That's completely your choice. You don't need a boy to fill up a place in your life, and you don't have to date again until you're ready. Just realize that you have power here. There's no specific way you're supposed to behave.

Any friend you could call up and speak to?

Yes currently I have one but I just feel like I can't completely open up and cry and you know how I would when I'm alone to them.

Sometimes I feel guilt that I treated him bad and pushed him to cheat perhaps sometimes made him feel like he wasn't worthy but I would only when he does something wrong in a heated argument or whatever you know. I sometimes feel guilt some days I don't because I think arguments things happen in relationship but I never cheated and that's the main thing I stuck by all the hard things.