Tbh i can’t really offer much advice but all i will say is i also feel pretty lost right now. I’m a first year (not at oxbridge) and i’m finding my subject very difficult , constantly thinking am i good enough, have i made a mistake etc but tbh i don’t have anything else in mind that i would rather do so i really do just need to get on with it because i know deep down i would never have the guts to actually drop out lmao.
Just holding out hope that i’ll enjoy it much more when it’s actually in person.
You clearly have other options that you could take and have thought about but i mean it is a difficult decision and like i say i really don’t know what you should do.
I just wanted to say that you’re really not alone, a lot of us are struggling but we’ll find our way eventually i hope.