My body dysmorphia is making dating/sex impossibleWatch
I'm a girl and I'm athletic/thin by anyone's standards, but I have a long history of anorexia and my body image is terrible as a result. I can't wear any of the clothes my friends do when we go out because I feel so uncomfortable, which is embarassing to start with, but being at uni has made it worst. I'm in the early stages of a relationship and I can't even think about having sex with them because I feel like they'd just find me absolutely repulsive under the baggy clothes.
I can't think about having sex with anyone without knowing they could find someone thinner or more attractive to get with instead and it just completely overwhelms me to the point where I don't even think it's worth it.
Does anyone have any advice? Living like this is painful and years of counselling as well as being inpatient has done nothing to fix my body image issues so suggestions like that won't help. I just need input from other people because my friends just don't understand at all.