Online dating multiple guys at once

...I'm faking an emotional reaction to certain things.

I'm not some sort of sociopath...

The only "bad" thing from what you've told us, and by bad I mean an area that you could look into, make a few simple changes and you'd have a better life, is; your time management.

As a law student you should have plenty of time on your hands for a real relationship.
Are you being perfectionist over your assignments?
Are you procrastinating and not getting stuck into things?

What about your inner social circle at uni? Don't your 5 closest friends stop you from feeling lonely?
Are you actually putting yourself out there and socialising with your fellow students?

Why spend time writing to someone in NZ when there are so many cool and interesting people on your campus?
It seems like you are missing out on opportunities that are on your doorstep.

You come across as someone that's putting a glass bubble on yourself. Break out of the bubble and stop holding yourself back!

You deserve to have a great student life.

I know this might make me seem like an awful person but as the title says, I online date guys, sometimes multiple at once, without any intention to ever meet them irl or start an actual relationship, when I get bored of one guy I will just find another before winding down the original online relationship or just gradually reply less until he gives up.

I'm a law student so I'm extremely busy with my studies and don't have time for a real relationship, I'm also not big on emotions, I don't naturally feel strong or deep emotions and I'm not very good at comforting others when they do, but I do get lonely and want someone to talk to in a romantic way so this seems like the best solution and is it less obvious that I'm faking an emotional reaction to certain things.

I'm not some sort of sociopath though, I do care about these guys on some level and I avoid hurting them where possible. I never tell them that they are just there to entertain my boredom/loneliness or that there are sometimes multiple guys. One of them even messaged me a few months after we stopped talking and told me that I helped him a lot because he had just moved here from New Zealand and I stopped him being lonely in his first few months here.

Does this make me a bad person or is it just not that deep? I tend to think that the guys are probably also similarly "using" me or are also over exaggerated the depths of their feelings for me.

I go to a top uni so there is a lot of work and I am a perfectionist in general meaning I probably spend a lot more time on my assignments/reading than most people would. I'm also a naturally quieter person have some moderate social anxiety issues as well as not having the patience for other people's drama/neediness. It's easier for me to send a message to someone whenever I feel like it than have to carve out entire days to devote to pandering to other people and making a massive effort for them which will just end up draining me.

How about you transferring some of your drive and ambition from submitting perfect assignments to improving your social skills?

As a legal professional you will have to do job interviews, interact with fellow workers and interact with clients. Your quietness and moderate social anxiety issues would hold you back.
You will never be in a better environment, than your top uni, for addressing your quietness and social anxiety.

This is one of those times in life when the easiest path is not the best path. It will take some courage for you to come out of your uni social shell. However, that is the better path for you than these online penpal relationships.

Please read Sherry Argov's Why Men Love *****es. The main theme of that book is that you are an enthusiastic, positive, non-angry, non-moody, non-nagging person to be with, but that you don't pander to other people and you don't make a massive effort for them. And that in being such a person you will be more attractive.

I have no problem talking in an academic/interview setting and about things I'm knowledgeable about, I'm just not very good at thinking of constant small talk topics to keep people (especially people my age) entertained and not come across as boring, I'm far more comfortable talking about law than about sex and drugs lol

So then you're not naturally a quieter person and you don't have moderate social anxiety issues. Because you have no problem talking in an academic or interview setting.

Again, read Sherry Argov's book. You don't need to be some performing monkey to keep people entertained in order for them to be attracted to you.
Staying clear of drugs and having no interest in them is perfect. Not gossiping about sex is fine too.

I know this might make me seem like an awful person but as the title says, I online date guys, sometimes multiple at once, without any intention to ever meet them irl or start an actual relationship, when I get bored of one guy I will just find another before winding down the original online relationship or just gradually reply less until he gives up.

I'm a law student so I'm extremely busy with my studies and don't have time for a real relationship, I'm also not big on emotions, I don't naturally feel strong or deep emotions and I'm not very good at comforting others when they do, but I do get lonely and want someone to talk to in a romantic way so this seems like the best solution and is it less obvious that I'm faking an emotional reaction to certain things.

I'm not some sort of sociopath though, I do care about these guys on some level and I avoid hurting them where possible. I never tell them that they are just there to entertain my boredom/loneliness or that there are sometimes multiple guys. One of them even messaged me a few months after we stopped talking and told me that I helped him a lot because he had just moved here from New Zealand and I stopped him being lonely in his first few months here.

Does this make me a bad person or is it just not that deep? I tend to think that the guys are probably also similarly "using" me or are also over exaggerated the depths of their feelings for me.