Hello,
I am struggling. I am really struggling.
Since the start of the year, I have done nothing but think about quitting my job to go and live as a volunteer at a youth hostel in Edinburgh. Maybe that sounds a little eccentric, but honestly it is a great idea. I can live independently without a 6-month contract, or paying any rent, and I will be socialising with people my own age, and not to mention all the weekly evening activities organised by the hostel staff.
No brainier right? Well I wish it was for me. I contemplated the decision for little over 2 months. I’m surprised I still have hair on my head!
I obviously have a very serious issue with overthinking matters. This isn’t the first in recent time that I have dwelled on a decisions for weeks on end.
I have thought about it so much so that going to Edinburgh is no longer an option, for the time being, as I have arrangements to go to Portugal the start of May, and all volunteers must do a minimum of 28 days before leaving. With a one month resignation period, I can no longer fit this in.
So what do I do now? I have grown to loathe my job with great passion. I do not want to work there any longer. When I am there I hate it. I think about the hours of my life I am wasting away when I am there, and the thought crawls my skin.
But, what else do I do? Leave? I could, but then I’d spend all of April unemployed. I do live at home with my parents, but still? Being unemployed for a month just sounds like a waste, and there wouldn’t be any worth in getting a new job just for a month.
The only pathway I can see, is that I stay at my current employment, and in the meantime, I arrange to see a therapist, one who I already know and have seen in the past. And then, see where that takes me.
Any other suggestions, feel free to recommend. I’d appreciate it.