my ex boyfriend treated me like rubbish. i sent him a long message explaining why i found it hard to trust him, why hes annoyed me so much etc and he didnt even reply. The girl who he messed me around with when i was sort of seeing him has gone to stay with him for a few days so they are probably shagging. Yet she told me when he was my bf that she wanted to be friends with me.
I cut him out and deleted him on fb and msn but miss him like crazy. I was friends with him for a long time before we were a couple but i felt like it was something i had to do because i cant trust him and talking to him still would just prolong my feelings for him. Hes a bit of a bastard tbh.
Its my birthday in 2 days yet hardly anyone is coming. i sent out a long message on fb to uni friends and hardly any replied and only 1 other person has confirmed coming. If i celebrated closer to where i live 2 more people would come but i doubt it as they dont get along and would be tense to be in the company of eachother.
my best friend from back home hardly has any time for me anymore.
I have low self esteem anyway and people making slight comments to me about the way i am (eg. you always seem sad, why are you doing that, you should dress like this, u need more clothes, your quiet, your sensitive) it just pisses me off loads and i feel like hitting them.
I dont feel like i can trust anyone anymore or that anyone cares about me :-(