... I don't know what I expect from you guys but it's nice to let off some steam!

The only way you can be happy is if you make yourself happy. No one else can do it for you. If you were a couple of years younger I'd probably put it down to the normal stresses of being a teenager, but if you're still feeling this way at 19...well, have you ever seen a counsellor?

You have two choices really;

1) Accept yourself the way you are - either by yourself (which is very difficult) or with a counsellor/therapist etc (which is still difficult but maybe not quite so, as you gain a neutral perspective)
2) Change yourself in order to accept the way you are - but this is risky, because you don't know that plastic surgery will actually make you content in the end.

We all have things that we don't like about ourselves, and probably most of these things go unnoticed by most others, as we are all so very self absorbed in our own individual looks and affairs. I'm positive that although you may have features you don't like, you will also have many that you do. No-one is created perfect, and therefore our imperfections are, in themselves, beautiful, as it makes us the individuals that we are. People probably only make comments about your nose, because it is clear you think there is a problem with it.. this is like my friend- everyone teases him about his nose, and its not actually even that much bigger or different, to anyone else's, people just know it gets to him, and so they keep teasing. As for the asymmetrical breasts, if you mean they're different sizes, this is completely common! Besides, men like breasts whatever the size or shape, so i wouldn't worry about it tbh. It sounds like you've been through some hard times, but you got through it, you faced a challenge and you overcame it. This is in itself an achievement, and will have made you a stronger person. In reality you can be whoever you want to be, you've just got to believe it. The limitations are only in your mind

Okay, so accepting your breasts, you have only mentioned that it is your nose you don't like. What's so wrong with the rest of you? I think these features are clouding your judgement of the rest of you. I have never met anyone, ever, that i failed to see one positive thing about them. You are your own harshest critic, this may be a cliche, but it is still very much true. Other people will view you a lot more positively than you view yourself, so you need to stop being so harsh on yourself, and make an effort to notice the good things.
And your forgetting personality here, although i'm sure there's no doubt that your better looking than you think you are, personality gets you a long way, further than mere looks for sure. x

Hi thanks for your reply.

No I have never seen a councelllor..I went to the doctor about the depression (it started about 9 months ago and since has got better now I have been accepted into uni- it kinda started to happen when i didnt get in to uni ...but thats a whole other story lol) but she told me if she diagnosed me they wouldnt give me breast augmentation on the nhs...as they would try and say im not sane enough to make a decision like that or something like that.
I think if I had my boobs done and nose done I would be more content definitely, but there is no way that I am going to be able to save up for one/two surgeries soon.
I'm 19 and I have never had a 'relationship', never done any of that kind of stuff, anytime anything comes up in the conversation about boyfriends, sex etc. I just feel awkward. x

Hmm. Difficult. Okay well, first off you're not in a such a small minority re boyfriends/sex as you think. I mean, I know several people who've had a reasonable amount of sex but have never actually been in a proper relationship (and it's not because they don't want one). I also know people who are still virgins. If you want to talk about that particularly, PM me cuz I'd rather not go on about it on this thread.

Also I read your other posts and maybe if the difference is that severe the breast surgery would be helpful for you, but the fact you can't list things you like about yourself suggests to me that even if you had your breasts/nose done you wouldn't really be that happy.
As for your doctor saying you couldn't have the surgery if you were diagnosed...that seems a bit weird. I wouldn't have thought they could say you're not sane?!
Anyway, it's your mental health that's of primary importance, maybe you should go back and talk to your doctor again/get a second opinion because you need to take some sort of action one way or another...doing nothing wont make you feel better. x

Yes well most of us don't look as nice without make up on, that is not just you! Besides, many males like petite females, i've heard them say so myself. There is someone out there for everyone, whilst getting hit on in the clubs is nice, it never really leads into an actual relationship, the guys don't like the girls they hit on because of their character, they merely see them as meat. Is that really what you want? There will be a guy out there, several guys out there infact, that will like you for you, and then you will see that your being far too critical on yourself. And how do you know that guys don't find you attractive? do you let every guy that you like know that you like him?

Look, I'm a guy. Self confessed master of the friend zone. I, personally, have MANY friends (even best friends) who are girls, but I never get any further with them, just friends. My friends say that when a girl looks at a guy, then they either put them in their friend zone, on their fancy zone (ugly or good looking) - leading me to think of myself as ugly. Since then, my self esteem has got the better of me. Not depression, because I'm not one for wallowing in self-pity, but just.. well.. insecurity. Looking back on pictures of myself, I am ****ing ugly. Whenever I look in the mirror, I suck in my cheeks, I try to be good looking but just fail - and yes, I know, it feels ****. I'm fat, but can't lose weight for the life of me. And not like, fat fat; I'm that stage where you're not really classified as fat, but youre not skinny, so you dress like a skinny person, but (my) moobs and love handles just pertrude. I gave up on looks for a bit, but walking out of the house and seeing good looking people made me feel so ****. But then I learnt why am I trying to be something I am not [generic i know], but seriously. I manned the **** up and started accepting that I'm no male model, it's something that everyone who isn't (in the immortal words of Derek Zoolander) 'really, really, rediculously good-looking' has to come to terms with. But when you do, it feels ****ing great. There is someone there out for you, I'm a 16 year old guy, and never kissed a girl.
Yeah letting off stream helps! x

Right....

Basically ever since I was little I have been insecure about my looks... I remember being in year 5 and crying my eyes out until my mum let me shave my legs, cause I hated having hairs poke through my tights...and being in like year 8 and not being able to go out to town with my friends one day cause I woke up looking more ugly than usual...

I have suffered from depression and an un diagnosed eating disorder (lasted for about a year, and parents found out about it before I could really get majorly bad..I was underweight and lost about a stone, bulimia and then more purging than binging). Well that was 2 years ago now (Im 19) and although I no longer 'am suffering' 2 years ago was not the last time I made myself sick, it acts as a bit of a release now and again.
I also have asymmetrical breasts which really affect my self esteem :-( I'm trying to get a breast augmentation on the nhs to sort this.

Anyway, the reason for me offloading that is basically I feel like my looks are affecting my life :-( I know it sounds really self absorbed and I know I'm probably going to get some 'there are more to life than looks' comments but it's really getting me down.
I have never had a proper relationship with anyone, cause I'm too insecure and no one really fancies me..and I fear that I might become ever more of a recluse because of my insecurities.
I have quite a large nose too and people always make comments on it and it's really upsetting me... It's my birthday next month and I don't even think I want to go out for it (I dont go out as it is) cause everytime I go out someone makes a comment about my appearance which makes me upset.

I don't know what the aim of this post is, and thanks for reading it those that have...I just feel so ugly and it's ruining me


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I can empathise OP, i was similar to you when i went to uni. I have huge thighs, and a thin face and long neck, and my breasts are larger than normal (I'm 18 with a 36D bra! Biggest my GPs seen in my age range ). I had never had a boyfriend or anything. I was bullied at school quite terribly mainly because people knew i didn't like myself.

Then i came to uni, and saw a properly trained counsellor (paid for by the uni!) who made me see that i wasn't as ugly as i thought i was. I know have a boyfriend (as my sig says!) who says i'm the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.

I advice you to see a counsellor too, and i also hope that the surgery makes you you happy. I'll never "love" myself like my friends do, but i am learning to like myself with the support of my boyfriend and my counsellor.

Good Luck, and feel free to PM me whenever.

my breasts are larger than normal (I'm 18 with a 36D bra! Biggest my GPs seen in my age range )..

Sorry, but that HAS to be a typo - 36D really isn't that large

Hi thanks for your reply! Aww thats great for you :-)

But when I read that I imagine your actually probably quite pretty... I;m worried I would go to a councellor and they would brainwash me into thinking I'm pretty and I'd have more confidence than I should, like a wanabee x factor hopeful! xx