Before I ask anything, I guess, I'll just introduce myself from the very 'root' of my question: I'm 19, I'm a girl, a metalhead and a Pakistani.
Where I live, I'm considered a freak, but I guess a girl trying her best screamo vocals will be considered a freak anywhere so that isn't really a problem.
Problem is, if I get the grades I'll have to pack my bags for uni soon (Sheffield, hopefully or Reading), and that has made me anxious.
I was really excited at first, since I can finally breathe and do what I want without being judged within seconds, but then I googled stuff and now I just feel....confused.
Now, I feel that I'll be stuck in the in-between. I drink here, smoke sometimes, date men, go to parties, but from what I've heard of the Pakistani's living or studying in UK, I guess I'm far from the stereotype and the 'ideal' pakistani chick so I certainly won't be welcomed in those circles. BUT, then with the kind of opinion people of other nationalities seem to hold about pakistani's and muslims I guess I wouldn't even be welcome anywhere outside my own ethnic circle.
What if I'm left to shrivel and die alone. Pakistani girls usually don't go to nightclubs, they don't even date most of the time,they certainly don't like metal or even basic rock and sometimes the one's who 'party', can um, do a bit tooo much of this. I'm a nerd of sorts so I'm certainly not going to abandon studying.
And then there are the boys. I'm not judging since i've met amazing people here but I've always seen that most of the guys who leave for studying turn into total douchebags there, and the first thing they want to do is get into your pants.
And then there are the gigs... I LOVE going to gigs, and discovering underground bands and stuff. What about the music scene? Will I have to let go of that too?
Honestly, I'm kind of scared.
What happens if I wear a dress or shorts? Am I going to be judged for being a 'sinner' or a 'wannabe' or something?
It's just three years, and I'll be back in my hometown and probably be obliged to marry some weird douche and give him babies. All I want is to live for those three years, so that my life isn't entirely a waste.
And what about my not so romantic 'love' life? :O Will I be set aside when it comes to the dating game? The only boys I like here are the ones who like the same music as me, have a piercing or two and can just generally have fun and not act like their forty and employed or something. And men like those are RARE in my country. I've only met one, but I guess I've friendzoned him and there's no going back so um, yeah.
I once promised a friend I'll only die peacefully once I've dated atleast one guy from every country so I have my own personal record
But seriously, how bad will it get?
You can post anonymously I guess, so please be as honest as you can, be mean or rude or anything I won't really mind lol
Sorry for such a LONG post. I don't even know how to structure this question, I'm just writing everything that popped up in my head.
But basically all I'm asking is what is the pakistani-girl stereotype, what is generally thought of them, and how will I be treated if I'm not as 'pious' as expected, and just a little lacking when it comes to feminine traits.
Guess that's it.
Thank you