I've been in a long distant open relationship for nearly a year now, we see each other about once a month for a long weekend, but because of circumstances until last Friday I'd not seen him two months and only got to spend the night with him, we decided it was either make or break....to the put the story short- he left early, after texting became arguments he confessed that he doesn't find me attractive anymore and he realised he doesn't like me that much in person anymore too. In all honesty I didn't really have much to say that night and had no banter, I was tired and kept on nagging at him to switch the lights off.
He has no feelings for me now what so ever, doesn't see the point in keeping in touch and wants us to remove each others numbers and go out separate ways for good, as its for the best.
I know I'm making him sound like a monster but he said that he was just telling the truth and I need to hear it blunt to accept it and move on, he replied back to my texts telling him how upset i am etc and he explained himself, he apologised and wished me not to be upset and that he wants me to be happy but I'm not the right guy for him etc and perhaps I should get back with my ex. I took it bad and begged him to see me once more, he told me that he didn't want to but I said it was for my own sakes and for closure and he said that he'll think about it and not to text him until Friday and he'll let me know then.
I'm heartbroken. I thought he was the one. I planned to move to his city (London) in September after ive finished uni. I can't stop crying, Ive lost my appetite for food and my hair is falling out in clumps because I'm that stressed/upset. I have a 6000 word essay to do by Monday and I've done none, I just can't concentrate. The essay is worth 50% of my course too!
Until now he's been perfect, very attentive and we would text everyday, I really don't have that many friends so he ment a lot to me in that respect as well. Put it this way, if I switched my phone off for 2 weeks I'd have zero messages from anyone, he's the only person who bothers. I have a couple distant friends who only message occasionally when there's no one to go out with. I have a sister who's a year old but she's in interested in going out clubbing like i want to, she's works a lot and has a boyfriend of 5 years and just isn't interests in clubbing. She sometimes lets me go out shopping or to the cinema with her and her boyfriend, but she's always more interested in him and we can never just go out the two of us together.
I admire my ex so much, he has amazing friends and is always having fun with them, gets on great with his family and comes from a nice lifestyle, he's good looking, confidant, good at sports, straight A's in everything, graduated from uni last year and by this time next year he'll be 24 and earning around 50K in his job and rising every year! Plus he's a very happy person. He's got it all. And I just feel like a loser