Hey everyone
I broke up with my ex on the 22nd December 2016. It has been one of the most difficult things that happened as it was unexpected and without reason. In short, the night before my ex told me he loved me like a normal night, I woke up in the morning and I was blocked from everyone.
Initially, I was a right state, confused, shocked and in constant thought of my ex. I would always check his social media and see when he was last online, even though it didn't help at all. When I went for walks, around campus or to the shops for example, he'd be on my mind for most of the time.
Now, almost two months on, I still think about my ex, at least for some time every day, but it is less and in passing. I still have the urge to check his social media, even though I know I shouldn't and it helps me in no way, I still just like to check it. I don't really know why.
My feelings towards my ex are less anger and more appreciative of the good times and reflective - sometimes I tear up, but I don't really cry a waterfall, as such.
Part of me feels slightly depressed in thinking that I am forgetting him - forgetting his voice, his style, and so on - because I don't know if that's what I want. Part of me wants to message him, but I pull back after a few sentences.
I just want an external perspective on this. I understand I've not given much context, but do people think I am doing better reading this? Does it seem I'm moving on? Is the feeling of depression normal?
Thank you