So I started uni a week ago and it’s now freshers week. I don’t expect to settle in straight away but I am feeling so homesick it’s unreal. I live so far away from my uni (200+ miles away so over 4 hours of driving) so getting home isn’t easy. I miss my family and my boyfriend, who is also back at home (he lives around an hour away from my house).
The first night of uni I had a huge argument with my boyfriend on the phone and he told me that this would just not work whilst I’m so far away. We’ve spoken about it a lot since then and it’s still difficult, we’re currently on a break but I just know it won’t work out properly at this distance because he’ll be worried sick about me. We both love each other to bits but this situation is just horrible.
This isn’t the only reason I’m thinking of leaving uni though, I miss my family endlessly and I don’t really get along with my flatmates. I tend to enjoy my own company so that can cause me to isolate myself a bit and I haven’t really found any good friends. Everyone is going out every night which I enjoyed at first but now I’m sick of it. There’s noise every night and I can’t sleep or eat because I feel so down.
I’ve always been quite book smart so uni is always something I just assumed I’d do. I still haven’t decided if I want to go to uni later on, or if I’ll look for an apprenticeship in something else, perhaps veterinary nursing. I can still apply for uni next year, just one that is a lot closer to home so that I feel comfortable.
If I come home I can take the year out, look for a job and spend time with my family. I’ll have a boyfriend who will always be there for me along with my friends. I just feel like I might not be ready for uni yet, I’m really struggling. There are other options that will make me happy e.g. the apprenticeship. I don’t want to go out and party every night. I want to come home to my family and my boyfriend, every night I’ve just spent crying because I want to go home so badly.
If anyone could offer some advice I’d be so grateful <3