Posting about BED last night made me want to test myself. As Goldsequin said, it really does take a stronger person to do things in moderation than it does to cut things out completely. So, I decided that I'd test myself a little bit. Mum had a box of chocolates out that I got her for Mother's Day, and I accepted a few. Four, to be exact. Now, this isn't anywhere near the same as them being MY chocolates, because it would have been rude to eat the whole box, and they weren't my favourites either (I'm not feeling strong enough to try moderating Galaxy Counters just yet..) but even so, in the past I would have eaten at least double that number, or carried on sharing them with my family until the box was finished. I stopped at my 4 and let the rest of my family carry on. Therefore, I'm proud of myself. I've come a long way. I'm not saying I'm cured or anything, because I don't believe that ANY ED truly leaves us completely, but I am certainly "in recovery".
I think I didn't tell anyone I had an ED because everyone expects people to be dangerously thin, not the opposite. When anyone says ED, you automatically think AN or BN, not BED. But now I think if I can help other people to understand themselves by posting information about myself, then I certainly am going to post about it from now on. Now that I am a normal weight, now that I know I can succeed.