I'm having issues with myself. Around 8 years old I started getting sad, then a few years later depressed. I'm 19 now, and up until maybe six months ago I was still suffering from full blown depression. I don't think I'm depressed right now, every once in a while I'm sad, but I'm definately not depressed. I mean, I manage to function in society and do everyday tasks and blah :P
But, I really don't enjoy myself as a person. I don't have a real personality (I don't think I ever managed to develop one, if that makes any sense). I'm boring, and don't do well in conversations. People don't like spending time with me, and I tend to drain people of energy when they do.
Not only do I not have a personality, or anything interesting about me I'm also really plain. So, my looks are boring, bordering (well, more than bordering) on just plain ugly. And I really don't enjoy doing things that involve thinking about myself (like sitting in my room listening to music).
When I think about myself (especially my body, and mind) I get the same feeling that you get when you look at a really old t-shirt that you wouldn't be able to sell at a charity shop because it's too dusty and boring. I'm just weird, boring and ugly basically.
So, how do people enjoy themselves? Does anyone else feel like that?