Recently, I left school, just in May this year having completed my A-Levels, and since, I have been trying to get a part-time job somewhere local in my town just to earn a bit of money before I go to university, whilst at the same time not totally destroying my social life, leaving me time to see my friends still whilst I can before I leave. To no avail, I got no part-time job, and a few weeks ago, my uncle on my mothers' side of the family came to me with an offer, a weeks' work experience with an engineering company in London, full-time. I initially accepted the offer, presuming a week wouldn't be too bad and if I didn't like it I could always not continue if they offered me a job.
For context, my mum and my dad separated when I was 13, although this didn't affect me too badly, as they were both still local. I can never say I've had a great relationship with my parents, both myself and my mum argue a lot, and my dad is constantly under stress from work, so I try to not annoy him as much as I can, although my dad has been extremely helpful towards me at times when I have needed it, which I greatly appreciate.
I finished the work experience last week, and personally, I found it hell. I found the work incredibly tedious, I felt like a complete idiot as I was clueless as of what to do, and the travelling was hell, I was leaving my house at 7 and not getting back until half 6 every night. They did offer me a job halfway through the week, which I initially said I wasn't too interested in, due to the reasons stated above. When I got home and mentioned this to my mum, she fiercely questioned me as to why, calling me 'lazy', which I understand it might come across as to being lazy, although it was mostly due to how boring I found the work. The next day, Thursday, when I return home from another day, my mums' parents are round, my grandparents, as normal, and more talk goes on about how I should take this job, eventually leading to more arguing, and leaving the room, I eventually overhear my mum calling me an 'embarassment'.
When my parents eventually mentioned it would probably be a lot of money, minimum £10 an hour for working in London, my head began to turn, and even if it was boring, for £80 a day, I thought I could probably live, and took the job. I then receive an e-mail from the person I've been working for, stating my pay would be £40 a day, or minimum wage. Having already taken the job, I now find myself working for, what is including the travelling hours, around £3.60 an hour, for something I don't want to do and is causing me a hell of a lot of stress, leading to more arguments in the family.
Really, I only post this so I can get some sort of relief from posting it, I just don't really know, and am actually quite scared of, what tomorrow brings really, because this job has made me constantly stressed, with actually very small rewards, and whilst I understand the value of work and the potential experience it offers me, for the stress and arguments and the length of the day, I don't think its truly worth it.
Honestly, there are holes in this post, but I'm tired as in 12 hours I'll be slaving through another day, not anywhere near getting out of there.
Just really looking for advice as to a next move or as to any way to keep myself motivated to keep working for whatever reason...