Im past my mid twenties now and still dont like the idea of being female, wearing impractical stuff like skirts, having nails done, hair and all that. Im very into sport, building my body up to be fit/strong and being independant.
Some lads/men about my age were at a party and one was lying down on a car park while another jumped over him in a skateboard. This is what i want to do, show off, be couragious and test myself etc. The women were just stood around in heels talking about shoes and their babies, its this that makes md feel dissapointed. I dont fit in with them at all and almost feel like a male figure around them despite only being 4ft11. ive always wanted to climb buildings etc but at my sge and my gender i'l be seen as odd for joining in all this.
I was just thinking about it earlier and i would have so loved to be a guy. Another big thing that dissapoints me is that im on a time limit i cant have fun till im 55 and then go and have a baby like a man can. Some people also say women get less 'valuble' with age whereas apparantly this doesnt happen with a man as their value all about status etc.
Its just crap being female everything about it imo ive never been feminine or had any female urges at all. My ex bf said i should be getting female urges to dress up etc and that there might be something wrong with me but its how i am.
Id have loved to be a guy id be in the gym bulking up, not having to worry about being attacked when walking alone, not worrying about biological clock, having to dress nice (although i dont anyway). Id just be laid back , carefree and attract girls with my buff physique and enjoy the satisfaction of remainjng valuble whilst i progress up my career. At parties id be doing daft things like kicking balls around, having pressup competitions to show off etc.
Its not that i dislike myself/body or anything im fine with my female body, its just the consequences and all the expectations that come along with it ive just never fitted in anywhere. Apparantly when i was born my dad said that he was glad i was a girl as they look after their patents when they are older. That annoys the hell out of me, he never looked after his mother.