I feel absolutely horrible... last night I had far too much to drink and it went badly.
It started with just kissing everyone around, fairly harmless stuff really. Mostly girls but some boys as well (even though I’d call myself straight). Anyway I started getting into it with one girl in particular and we snuck off and she gave me head. We came back out afterwards and went to the garden. Now I don’t remember any of what actually happened out there but I somehow ended up getting a bj from a different girl at the end of the garden, which was seen by a lot of people. The bit where it turns a bit twisted though is that while this was happening a guy I know came up and joined in. Now I honestly didn’t realise this had happened until it had already started, and I really didn’t want him to do it but I guess I didn’t say no so I can’t really complain.
The night went on and I eventually passed out, but I feel absolutely horrible today thinking about it, everyone saw so people will be talking about it at school and I can’t mentally prepare myself for that. I really don’t know what to do and I can’t even sleep thinking about it. I don’t even know why I’m typing this all up as it can’t be solved, I just think I needed to say something.