i started year 7 at an all-girls grammar school in september and after my first week i was already regretting wanting to go...it was nothing like i'd imagined.
my friends from transition day abandoned me without a word on the very first day, my classmates ignored me and by the end of the first week, my "best friend" from primary school was drifting away to her new classmates.
i tried really hard to see if i could get to know my new form, but whenever i tried to talk to them, they would ignore me and start talking to someone else - i know they hear me because they look at me then look away. they talk about me behind my back - i've heard them. they say i'm rude when they think i don't answer them, or try to ignore. they give me dirty looks when i haven't done anything. they follow me around school (one girl is literally my personal stalker atp). they act like my hobbies/interests are stupid. they treat popular things such as kpop, tiktok stuff, etc - which i am not exposed to - as common knowledge and make it seem like i am stupid for not knowing about these things. they try to use me. one girl is always looking at me like i've said/done something to wrong her and this same one is always targeting me/singling me out (such as picking my role in groupwork (since teachers always put us together for some reason) when she knows i don't want to do that role). one girl even openly said she really hated me in our class group chat!!
for some reason, there doesn't seem to be a single nice person in my class - but i tell myself this is okay, since i have a few friends in other classes.
however, the way they've been treating me is actually affecting me - i find it hard to focus and keep up with my schoolwork, since all i can think about is them. i'm struggling with my confidence and self-esteem.
i don't think they are being racist - there's three other kids in class with a dark skin tone like me, and the majority of the class are also POC. i don't even know if what they are doing is bullying or not 🤷🏽*♀️
asides this, i generally don't like the school - the teachers are not very nice and the student support system is terrible. i also know that even if you report things, the school don't take things seriously.
it's been like this since the beginning of the year and now i've realised what i really want is to change schools - to be able to start somewhere new where nobody knows me and i dont know anyone, to have a fresh start.
i've talked with my parents and they know all about my classmates and the way they treat me, but they just go on about me improving my 'confidence' at my current school first before i change school, telling me how will i know what other places will be like, etc. i know this is true but we haven't even tried. and at the moment, they are suggesting that they want me to stay on here...it's not like im suggesting to go to the local comprehensives - i even researched alternative grammar schools!! (since they are so deadset on me going to one...)
i know it's hard to apply for new schools, or go to a school outside of our town, or to find a house to move elsewhere...but i know that staying here will make my mental health worse, but they are not understanding.
are there any ways i can convince them to let me change schools?