I have a crippling needle phobia, and have since I was young, I couldn't bring myself to get the COVID jab, and the last time I had an injection I was in school and accidentally broke My PE teacher's rib, (she was holding me down).
(This is relevant to illustrate the intensity of this phobia.)
I'm home from uni for Christmas and had a dentist appointment today, he said I need a filling on one of my lower back teeth and he booked me in for tomorrow, so it could be done Asap.
But I am terrified of needles, my plan is to refuse the anaesthetic but my mother described how intense the pain would be without the anesthetic, and told me I had to get the injection, her advice was to close my eyes, clearly she doesn't understand having a needle phobia. I have had two mental breakdowns, today just thinking about the appointment tomorrow, my eyes are still watery and I don't think I will sleep at all tonight. I tried watching videos of injections in a frantically desperate attempt to cure my phobia, but evidently it didn't work. Please offer advice I am terrified and on the verge of just ripping the tooth out so i don't have to have the filling.