okay, this might be long, so i truly appreciate anyone willing to give advice and i am very sorry if ive wasted anyones time.
im 17, i turn 18 this year (2024). i started college last year, despite not wanting to, because i had just moved to a whole new area and couldnt find work.
since i was 13, i have severely suffered in an academic environment. i am extremely intelligent academically, but suffered in grades and attendence due to debilitating mental illness. i had a psychotic break in october of 2022, when i was in year 11, and it was deemed by my school and others that it was safer for me and the people around me if i studied at home and did my GCSEs in a private area at school. issue is, i was promised online work and did not receive it until 2 weeks before my GCSEs. that coupled with my lack of attendance meant i was quite literally guessing theoughout my exams. i managed to pass all my core subjects with 4s, and i was higher tier.
then, when i applied for college, i could not apply for the a-levels due to my gcses. i asked to re-do my gcses, they said no, and i had no choice but to pick two BTEC subjects i didnt even want to do and join a college i never even wanted to go to.
now, im stuck. im jobless and close to being kicked out of school because my mental illness issues are severely impacting my attendence and ability to meet deadlines. again, my work is university quality (according to my teachers), but im failing in areas requiring motivation and mental energy. i have no friends (literally), and i am DESPERATE for a job. i love to work so so much, but have no experience as everything ive done has been for family (e.g. helping in a sweet shop my parents owned, babysitting my niece). i have been applying for jobs since april 2023 daily, and yet have only heard back from three - all to reject me. i consistently update my CV and cover letter, i do follow up emails if a company does not get back to me, i apply to places both online and in person, NOTHING. if i cant find a job and get kicked out of school, i lose my child benefit and my parents cant afford to house me without it. i NEED a job and i dont know what im doing wrong.
does anyone have any advice? im starting to feel hopeless. truly, utterly, hopeless.