I feel hated

people hate me for being good at things too

I never thought life would turn upside down so fast but here we go. As the title says, nobody really wants to be around me or talk to me. I have a friendship group, but they are closer to each other and often leave me out. It's not just friends, it's everyone. We'll have a conversation, and it won't be awkward but then nothing really happens after that. There's no strong bond. I'm not quiet, I'm always smiling, making jokes as I love laughing. At the same time i take care not to appear weird. Nobody wants someone acting superficial. But I always have to take the initiative to talk to people. But when it comes to someone else, they talk to them so much and in a much more closer way. I also think I'm slightly stupid which doesn't help. I just don't learn things that quickly which may make people seem like I'm not a valuable person to be around. Even my professors - even they ignore me. I noticed recently that when they teach others they're always so encouraging and saying their names. Literally praising them every second. But when it comes to me they'll be really closed off and prefer not to talk to me if it's just sat in the classroom. I'm always the person whose left out, who's misunderstood. Anywhere and everywhere, despite not having terrible social skills and showing interest in others and being light-hearted. Every day is a pain. I don't think even one's gone by in two years where I've not had this pit in my stomach out of sadness. I struggle to even hide it anymore. People notice when I'm just sadly staring out the window but I can't tell anyone. I hate everything about me at this point, ugly, no personality and just purely hated. How do I fix this?

You seem very harsh on yourself.

I'd probably speak to your GP about low mood / low self esteem.

what if their perception of the situation is just accurate tho? That would be a legitimate reason to feel crap

people hate me for being good at things too