I’m so jealous of my friends life and I’m becoming a toxic friend

I’m currently in yr13 (I’m a female). I’m a very hard worker, and I’ve always wanted to achieve high in my life. I’m predicted all A*s and I plan to do engineering. I’m from an Asian background so my parents have always told me to steer away from dating until uni, and if I do date it should be someone who will provide as well as me. (Ie go for someone who has an equally good job + education).

My whole friendship group are in relationships/talking stages.And I won’t lie, they’re all doing terrible academically. They’re all achieving Us and Es, have loads of rejections from uni. But for some reason, the fact that they are all in relationships bother me. It probably wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t all they talked about. But still. I feel excluded seeming as I’ve never had a boyfriend.

boys have approached me before. I think 6/7 guys (most of those guys being in sixth form because I had my ‘glow up’ by then and I joined a new sixth form) have told me they ‘like me’ and I rejected all of them because I knew how much of a distraction it would be for my education.
I don’t go out AT ALL because of my strict parents. Lol the last time I went out with my friends was probably last year in the summer holidays)

I know I am SO close to exams and I don’t want to let myself down at all!! I want to get my A*s in the real exam so these petty talking stages shouldn’t matter to me.

My best best friend is the worst of them all tbh. She’s an actual beg, as horrid as I sound but it’s true. She’d talk to the most vile boys ever who were clearly only talking to her for sex (they explicitly said) and she still was delusional (all the boys ditched her in the end). and she’d tell me how she went to the club and kissed 3 RANDOM guys in one night ?!
It’s driving me insane!!

I’m currently in yr13 (I’m a female). I’m a very hard worker, and I’ve always wanted to achieve high in my life. I’m predicted all A*s and I plan to do engineering. I’m from an Asian background so my parents have always told me to steer away from dating until uni, and if I do date it should be someone who will provide as well as me. (Ie go for someone who has an equally good job + education).

My whole friendship group are in relationships/talking stages.And I won’t lie, they’re all doing terrible academically. They’re all achieving Us and Es, have loads of rejections from uni. But for some reason, the fact that they are all in relationships bother me. It probably wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t all they talked about. But still. I feel excluded seeming as I’ve never had a boyfriend.

boys have approached me before. I think 6/7 guys (most of those guys being in sixth form because I had my ‘glow up’ by then and I joined a new sixth form) have told me they ‘like me’ and I rejected all of them because I knew how much of a distraction it would be for my education.
I don’t go out AT ALL because of my strict parents. Lol the last time I went out with my friends was probably last year in the summer holidays)

I know I am SO close to exams and I don’t want to let myself down at all!! I want to get my A*s in the real exam so these petty talking stages shouldn’t matter to me.

My best best friend is the worst of them all tbh. She’s an actual beg, as horrid as I sound but it’s true. She’d talk to the most vile boys ever who were clearly only talking to her for sex (they explicitly said) and she still was delusional (all the boys ditched her in the end). and she’d tell me how she went to the club and kissed 3 RANDOM guys in one night ?!
It’s driving me insane!!

I’m currently in yr13 (I’m a female). I’m a very hard worker, and I’ve always wanted to achieve high in my life. I’m predicted all A*s and I plan to do engineering. I’m from an Asian background so my parents have always told me to steer away from dating until uni, and if I do date it should be someone who will provide as well as me. (Ie go for someone who has an equally good job + education).

My whole friendship group are in relationships/talking stages.And I won’t lie, they’re all doing terrible academically. They’re all achieving Us and Es, have loads of rejections from uni. But for some reason, the fact that they are all in relationships bother me. It probably wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t all they talked about. But still. I feel excluded seeming as I’ve never had a boyfriend.

boys have approached me before. I think 6/7 guys (most of those guys being in sixth form because I had my ‘glow up’ by then and I joined a new sixth form) have told me they ‘like me’ and I rejected all of them because I knew how much of a distraction it would be for my education.
I don’t go out AT ALL because of my strict parents. Lol the last time I went out with my friends was probably last year in the summer holidays)

I know I am SO close to exams and I don’t want to let myself down at all!! I want to get my A*s in the real exam so these petty talking stages shouldn’t matter to me.

My best best friend is the worst of them all tbh. She’s an actual beg, as horrid as I sound but it’s true. She’d talk to the most vile boys ever who were clearly only talking to her for sex (they explicitly said) and she still was delusional (all the boys ditched her in the end). and she’d tell me how she went to the club and kissed 3 RANDOM guys in one night ?!
It’s driving me insane!!

I’m currently in yr13 (I’m a female). I’m a very hard worker, and I’ve always wanted to achieve high in my life. I’m predicted all A*s and I plan to do engineering. I’m from an Asian background so my parents have always told me to steer away from dating until uni, and if I do date it should be someone who will provide as well as me. (Ie go for someone who has an equally good job + education).

My whole friendship group are in relationships/talking stages.And I won’t lie, they’re all doing terrible academically. They’re all achieving Us and Es, have loads of rejections from uni. But for some reason, the fact that they are all in relationships bother me. It probably wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t all they talked about. But still. I feel excluded seeming as I’ve never had a boyfriend.

boys have approached me before. I think 6/7 guys (most of those guys being in sixth form because I had my ‘glow up’ by then and I joined a new sixth form) have told me they ‘like me’ and I rejected all of them because I knew how much of a distraction it would be for my education.
I don’t go out AT ALL because of my strict parents. Lol the last time I went out with my friends was probably last year in the summer holidays)

I know I am SO close to exams and I don’t want to let myself down at all!! I want to get my A*s in the real exam so these petty talking stages shouldn’t matter to me.

My best best friend is the worst of them all tbh. She’s an actual beg, as horrid as I sound but it’s true. She’d talk to the most vile boys ever who were clearly only talking to her for sex (they explicitly said) and she still was delusional (all the boys ditched her in the end). and she’d tell me how she went to the club and kissed 3 RANDOM guys in one night ?!
It’s driving me insane!!

I’m currently in yr13 (I’m a female). I’m a very hard worker, and I’ve always wanted to achieve high in my life. I’m predicted all A*s and I plan to do engineering. I’m from an Asian background so my parents have always told me to steer away from dating until uni, and if I do date it should be someone who will provide as well as me. (Ie go for someone who has an equally good job + education).

My whole friendship group are in relationships/talking stages.And I won’t lie, they’re all doing terrible academically. They’re all achieving Us and Es, have loads of rejections from uni. But for some reason, the fact that they are all in relationships bother me. It probably wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t all they talked about. But still. I feel excluded seeming as I’ve never had a boyfriend.

boys have approached me before. I think 6/7 guys (most of those guys being in sixth form because I had my ‘glow up’ by then and I joined a new sixth form) have told me they ‘like me’ and I rejected all of them because I knew how much of a distraction it would be for my education.
I don’t go out AT ALL because of my strict parents. Lol the last time I went out with my friends was probably last year in the summer holidays)

I know I am SO close to exams and I don’t want to let myself down at all!! I want to get my A*s in the real exam so these petty talking stages shouldn’t matter to me.

My best best friend is the worst of them all tbh. She’s an actual beg, as horrid as I sound but it’s true. She’d talk to the most vile boys ever who were clearly only talking to her for sex (they explicitly said) and she still was delusional (all the boys ditched her in the end). and she’d tell me how she went to the club and kissed 3 RANDOM guys in one night ?!
It’s driving me insane!!

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