As a guy who suffered from porn addiction I can try to understand what you are going through. What killed my addiction though, was my girlfriend leaving me. After that I wanted to change and didn't see porn the same way anymore, and realised how it tainted my view of reality and girls. I picked up other hobbies, like a bit of running, and reading. I have gotten the urge to just go on pornhub thinking "just once won't hurt" many times, but I just keep thinking I don't want to be the person I was before, the person I hated, and resist by occupying myself with other things or waiting for it to go away.
Though I don't watch porn anymore, I do pleasure myself with this girl I know, it is a much better alternative and doesn't make you feel like a **** person, though that's entirely up to you. I think right now try your utmost best to not go back there again, keep holding on to your most pure reason and motivation not to, that's something only you can help yourself with. I wish you good luck.