Mid-week update:
This week is going well so far, I'm keeping on top of my homework well and so either this week or next week I'm going to kick off some light revision. I am to have re-read my AS Lit books (it's linear, so I need to keep them fresh in my head) by the end of the Christmas holidays, which gives me plenty of time to read and organise my key quotes for each text.
This week I also plan to revise non-fatal offences from AS Law (non-linear), as this topic comes up again this year in LAW03. We're going to go over them in class, but I really want to be on the ball and remember the cases well.
For French, I'm going to keep revising grammar, for example verb conjugations and I plan to make the effort to really get my head around the subjunctive.
Other:
I also thought I'd share with you all a slight problem I am worried about. This year in Law we are studying criminal law (offences against the person) and as such are learning about fatal offences - murder and manslaughter. Now I am not generally a squeamish person, but I have an irrational fear of bleeding to death which causes my brain to want to faint.
Bearing that in mind, you can imagine that I didn't have a very good reaction to a case study in one of the 2013 papers in which a man named Harry got a broken glass stuck in his thigh. His brother tried to stop the bleeding for 30 minutes, but couldn't and so Harry bled to death. When I read this I had all the usual symptoms. I felt sweaty and fidgety, my ears rang and my sight began to reduce to coloured fuzzy outlines. This has happened a few times before (my first 'attack' was in year 7) and so I know how to deal with it. I asked to go to the toilet - I didn't want to cause a fuss - and walked out unsteadily, as I couldn't see clearly where I was. I walked down the corridor and realised I couldn't actually see where I was going at all anymore. After a pause, my sight got better and I proceeded towards the stairs. I deemed myself safe to walk down them when I my teacher asked my if I was alright (he must have followed me, realising something was wrong). I told him not really, but once I had a short walk I'd be fine and I'd be back in a few minutes. I went down the stairs and out of the building, sat for a little while until my vision went back to normal and the ringing in my ears faded, then returned.
Unfortunately, on Monday we looked again at the exact same case study and I managed much better until somebody said 'blood everywhere'. I left quicker than last time under the same excuse (although I did actually need the toilet as well) and so I wasn't nearly as bad and recovered very quickly.
My mother thinks that maybe I should have counselling for this problem. I've only actually fainted once before, although I have come close a good few times and even the lesser 'attacks' aren't pleasant for me. I really hate that this happens to me and wish I knew how to stop it. However, this will only happen to me around 2-3 times a year and I could deal with it if it wasn't for the fear that there will be a case study like this in my Law exam and I'll lose precious time trying to calm myself down or I will not bother trying to manage it and I will actually faint in the middle of my exam. I don't know what to do. I don't like talking about it as it's a ridiculous problem which I don't think many people have! I suppose I'm wondering if anyone has any advice.
(ps. sorry for the ramble).