Hey, so a lot of the comments in here seem to be, as expected, completely butthurt and/or doing the exact same thing you've been afraid of: tampering with you emotionally by saying you'll go to hell, you're a kaffir etc. etc. Expect a LOT of that to happen if you decide to come out to everybody about leaving your religion. Islam, I find, is one of the religions that even in the modern day people CLING on to for dear life, and even people who aren't Muslim refuse to criticize it. You will just have to accept that people are going to give you a TON of ****, emotionally blackmail you etc. etc, or tell you that you are "betraying your culture" or you're somehow leaving God behind and falling into the evils of the Western devils blah blah blah...just ignore all of that, because at the end of the day, even if there is a God, it certainly cannot be a God that damns you to hell because you don't want to spend the rest of your life walking around on eggshells, and having to follow ridiculous rules like not eating pork or believing in this poisonous "us vs. them" mentality that Islam ESPECIALLY promotes. Your life is more important than a medieval ideology that is just downright incompatible with modern society. Live your life freely and without regrets, knowing that you are a decent person. Have courage. Best of luck.