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I want to be a boy - but I'm not transgender :/
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Original post by Anonymous
maybe i posted in the wrong section 
you need to give it more time.... I cannot relate to u cuz i'm a boy and I like it... But (Dunno if ur religious or not) God created you for the way you are. God gave you the characteristics that you have for a reason, God made you to who you are and who you should be destined to become, not a tomboy, not get jealous of the opposite Gender, embrace it. You say it's like getting and Xbox when u want the Play Station, sure you will be disappointed and upset, but there is nothing stopping you from using the Xbox, it still functions properly and does what it needs to do, so why hate on ur gift of life and the way you look. Well I can't command you to do what I say, it is ur choice, i am only giving advice.
Not being transgender, is is because you don't have much money, or the fact that you don't want to take this to an extreme level??
BTW, i'm a regular 15 year old boy.
Original post by NomNimNom
ok ok I get how you feel so much. I go by Alex. I enjoy being a girl and dresses and ****, but I wish i had a guys body, or I wish I could just change back and forth from one to the other with the snap of my fingers. or I wish no one cared about gender and we could all just say. I enjoy being a guy, but like, I'm not one. does that make any sense? I'm a girl who enjoys being a guy? idk. I like guys clothes and hanging out with guys and playing video games and stuff, but i like art and singing and dresses too... what am I? i don't know. I hate being a guy and a girl, for me I either need to be one or the other.
What you are is what you wish to become... you can either be both male or female, none of the Bull**** needs to matter, forget the world and it's people who hate on you, just focus on the ones who love and care for you... NOBODY will judge u if they are your true friends. You don't need to be a guy or a girl, my opinion is for you to be both, but if you wish to chose, just measure up the pros and cons of male and female, and which ever one has the most pros and least cons will be ur option...
Omg I can empathise so badly, I’m in the same position but as a guy
I'm so glad I find this post it relates too me cuz I'm feel this way,i was born a girl and I am a girl but its like I don't like girls far as dating,i like men and nother thing is it turns me on when I watch two men go together and all,its like if I were too trangender into a man I would date a man so seems that would seem like were both gay its kind of hard to explain too people that don't feel or are this way,thanks so much for this post I'm just trying too figure out what I'm label as if I think this way.
Same,I don't like girls clothes,barbies or makeup never had and really wish I was a boy
Original post by Anonymous
tl;dr : I'm a girl, who wishes she was born a boy, but is not transgender.
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
You need jesus
come to my church
I felt like this for 20 years. I am going to go to my doctor next week to start T.
I'm sick and ****ing tired of trying to hide myself, to keep trying to make things click as a girl. I've done the dresses, high heels, long hair, dating boys but nope the feelings are incredibly strong. I cry everytime I see my naked body in the mirror. I saw a psychologist a few times who agrees T is the way to go.
I'm so ****ing excited.
I'm sick and ****ing tired of trying to hide myself, to keep trying to make things click as a girl. I've done the dresses, high heels, long hair, dating boys but nope the feelings are incredibly strong. I cry everytime I see my naked body in the mirror. I saw a psychologist a few times who agrees T is the way to go.
I'm so ****ing excited.
dude same! i can totally understand, although i am properly bisexual. i've dated more girls than guys. problem is, i'm 17 this year and i have NEVER worn a dress or makeup, nor owned any dolls or had favourite female idols. i wear things from guy sections and act/sound like a dude, the only difference is my hair is still long and i keep my physical appearance that i can't change feminine. i have no interest in becoming transgender, and just painfully wish i was born a dude. no, i'm not a stereotypical butch, i look like a popular girly girl but without makeup, tidy hair or the clothes. i sorta just let it all go and wear the stuff i'm interested in. i suggest you just get/do what you want, masculine subjects, and identify as who you are. maybe find a hijab that you're comfortable with and has a slight masculine look to it? 
how i also deal with this problem is that i have a nickname, mitch, which is my second name. i go by it because it's masculine and makes me feel better about myself. i hope these ideas help.
how i also deal with this problem is that i have a nickname, mitch, which is my second name. i go by it because it's masculine and makes me feel better about myself. i hope these ideas help.dude same! i can totally understand, although i am properly bisexual. i've dated more girls than guys. problem is, i'm 17 this year and i have NEVER worn a dress or makeup, nor owned any dolls or had favourite female idols. i wear things from guy sections and act/sound like a dude, the only difference is my hair is still long and i keep my physical appearance that i can't change feminine. i have no interest in becoming transgender, and just painfully wish i was born a dude. no, i'm not a stereotypical butch, i look like a popular girly girl but without makeup, tidy hair or the clothes. i sorta just let it all go and wear the stuff i'm interested in. i suggest you just get/do what you want, masculine subjects, and identify as who you are. maybe find a hijab that you're comfortable with and has a slight masculine look to it? how i also deal with this problem is that i have a nickname, mitch, which is my second name. i go by it because it's masculine and makes me feel better about myself. i hope these ideas help
how i also deal with this problem is that i have a nickname, mitch, which is my second name. i go by it because it's masculine and makes me feel better about myself. i hope these ideas helpFINALLY! someone feels similar to me. I'm 16 and I've wanted to be a boy since I was born pretty much. I'm not 100% sure on what my sexuality is but when people ask me I just tell them I'm asexual but after a year I'm not sure if I fit into that. I also hate women's clothing so I always shop in the men's section. I struggle to socialise and talk to girls I'm not close friends with but put me with a group of boys and ill be able to. There are so many things that make me wish I was male bit those are just a couple.
Original post by Anonymous
tl;dr : I'm a girl, who wishes she was born a boy, but is not transgender.
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
I get what you mean!!!! Thay was me for a while! While I 100% wished i was aboy but wasn't wanting to change...ie be trans...this only rly stopped when I. rly started embracing my femininity
I relate! Though I'm not religious, I think a lot about how much better/easier my life would be if I were born male. I think I'd enjoy it a lot more. I wouldn't change now because I don't /feel/ male- I've tried binding my chest and dressing masculine but even then I still look feminine and it still didn't feel right. But if there was a way to pick your gender before birth I'd probably have picked male.
I love men's shirts, shoes and clothing- they just appeal more (sadly they don't fit me though). But I also love dresses and embracing femininity. It's confusing as hell but I'm 100% sure I'm female. It's more of a wistful longing to have been born male rather than female.
Don't know about your family/friendships/religious circumstances so idk if I can relate there but I hope this helped!
I love men's shirts, shoes and clothing- they just appeal more (sadly they don't fit me though). But I also love dresses and embracing femininity. It's confusing as hell but I'm 100% sure I'm female. It's more of a wistful longing to have been born male rather than female.
Don't know about your family/friendships/religious circumstances so idk if I can relate there but I hope this helped!
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Yeah I'll reply, your ****ing stupid
Original post by Anonymous
tl;dr : I'm a girl, who wishes she was born a boy, but is not transgender.
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
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I'm having the same issue. I have been having these feelings since I was 9 or 10. I come from the same background as you, Muslim, and it kills me how closed minded people can be in this community. I was outed at the age of 10 for liking girls. It was hell. I thought I was just gay. Honestly, I was just ignoring the fact that I did not like my gender. But I would always pretend to be a boy when playing games with my sister and I would just pretend to be a guy. Same as you, baggy clothes, not caring about my looks really and just having a **** it attitude. It's all changed now. It's come to the point where my depression and anxiety are messing me up so much and I had to confront those feelings. That I may possibly be transgender. I think I am. I am not really sure. Nor am I sure as to how it would work out, or if I would even act upon it. But I can't keep living like this.
Sorry, I just had to rant and let it out. Hope you're okay.
Original post by Anonymous
tl;dr : I'm a girl, who wishes she was born a boy, but is not transgender.
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
Okay so this is ... hard to explain
Basically - I'm a girl, I'm 17
Ever since I started 'developing' at around 10 - I hated it
I grew up with both sisters and brothers but my brothers were much closer to my age than my sisters
I hated that I wasn't like them
that I didn't look like them
I hated that I started growing breasts and it made me self conscious
and when my period came I was horrified I didn't want itI never liked 'girl things'. I hated makeup, I hated barbies, I couldn't stand princesses - I always identified more with the male characters than the female. I liked sports and cars and wrestling and rock music and action and horror and awesomeness. I listened (and still listen to) male artists and dislike female artists - I feel like the male voice speaks to me more and I wanna be able to sing like them - I hate that my voice is feminine.
Going to high school I saw how all the girls acted - some were tomboys and some were very feminine. I started off not giving a **** about my appearance - obviously I cared about my hygiene but I didn't like how clothes that were 'made for me' looked on me so I just wore baggy things - even at home
I just hated being a female - especially when I learned of all the stereotypes and all the things that I have to do/ can't do because I'm a girl.
This was all the way up to year 13 - then I decided to embrace my feminine side and started wearing dresses, matching clothes, getting heels, wearing makeup, carrying handbags. That made me happy for a while... but then I started hating it again.
And because I'm Muslim I wear the hijab and I just dislike wearing it. I know I have to wear it for God and stuff but I hate it (still gonna wear it because I have to) - I just don't like having to study a certain subject, work in a certain sector, dress a certain way just because of what's between my legs. I get that females and males, while equal, are different but I don't like that. I don't like being different to men.
I'm not attracted to girls and am attracted to men (all my crushes have been on men) BUT i feel like if I were born a boy I would have no problem getting with girls. But as a girl I don't like the idea of that. So I don't think I'm bisexual because in my current... state... I don't like the idea of being with a girl.
But if you asked me what I was I'd say I am a girl. I don't feel the need to CHANGE into a boy. I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body - I just wish I was born a male. I get my gender I just don't identify with it - I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense I don't know how to explain.
It's like being given an XBOX when you want a PlayStation for a present. You'll still take the XBOX but you secretly would've REALLY wanted a PlayStation (let's pretend you can't exchange/ return it). Buying PlayStation controllers and stickers and parts and putting them on the XBOX isn't gonna turn it into a PlayStation so I'm not gonna go get surgery because I don't feel like I want to do that I just wish I was given a PlayStation in the first place
ARGH this has been bothering me for so long I don't know how to deal with it :/
Don't be a boy. We're literally demons. We're evil. Or at least that's how society paints us.
Hey um yeah I totally get what you’re feeling and I read your example (Xbox and PlayStation thing) and actually started tearing up because I’m 14 and I’ve been confused for a while... I mean I like makeup but I probably wouldn’t wear it if I didn’t have horrible dark circles and I like skinny jeans and boots and dresses but I hate that I have hips and boobs etc. and I hate that I have a feminine voice I mean for as long as I can possibly remember I’ve always wanted a deeper voice (I mean not super manly but just deeper) I hate being a girl and wish I was a man but I don’t want to be trans because some days I love dressing up and being a girl. Also I’m going to be a freshman next year and thinking about prom I would love to wear a dress but I also really want to wear a dope ass tux... idk sorry if that was really confusing
IM confused
IM confusedI know how u feel. I feel the same way but I'm a guy who likes female things but don't like the trans side. It isn't the same as being u its just a coat. Like i always wished i was a girl but being trans isn't the same. Because u don't have the full carotoristics as that gender u want to be. I'm sorry that i can't help because i feel the same way. And because of it u just question and try to be that gender but in the end u can't.
I am a girl. But when I look in the mirror I see a guy. It feels wrong when I wear tight closthes that reveal my gender. (I have boy short hair cut) I like the idea of being a guy. This may be different for you but I hate being a girl. I hate periods, I hate boobs. I am attracted to mainly girls but sometimes guys. I am not trans. I still identify as a girl. I don’t want to do the surgery, and I don’t want to come out as trans. I guess I want to but am to scared of the judgment. Even if I do I won’t be seen as a guy. I will be seen as trans. I just want to be normal and get through highschool. Wait out the hell i guess
I feel exactly the same way, I just like boys/men a lot more in general, I've always thought that I did because I'm a straight girl, kind of obvious that women like men more if that's the case, isn't it? I don't care for female artists at all, I feel like a feminazi or something and I really hate this about myself, but when I know something was made by a woman I just can't appreciate it.. I oftentimes don't like female singers/writers/ actresses, except maybe for the more masculine roles in films, like Laura in
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