I want to cheat

I won't, i'm not a cheater
but i think about doing it a lot, to deal with being so insecure. My bf is so patient with my jealousy and says lovely things about me & out relationship but i have serious problems with myself

I think about just having nice evenings on a 'date' talking to someone who likes me and will make me feel desirable, interesting and exciting. Or kissing someone for the first time again even if i have no feelings for them i know they're getting hard (lol)

Cause otherwise i'm just a piece of ****

How can I manage this mean desire? Guys and dating have always been the fastest way to give me confidence, but never lasts long. As soon as they get to know me i feel 'found out' like they suddenly discovered i lied about being a wonderful person and will always now have their eye on others. Then i get insecure and push them away for good

I hope your bf sees this and realises you're a red flag. Like a total red flag.That

He can do better and I hope he will

If you aren't happy with your relationship, break up and then date another guy. Don't date two guys at the same time because that is plain mean. Your bf trusts you and you shouldn't break his trust like this.

Why am I a red flag not just someone who is struggling with something?

Because you're rushing to another person instead of working it out with your boyfriend. It's not rocket science... Either you dump him or talk to him to improve your relationship.

Work on your self confidence and avoid arrogance. Guess he’s attached to you, which should make you more confident. Unless he keeps looking at other girls. That’s the only case you’d feel low self-esteem or wanna cheat.

He does sometimes, and they flirt with him.

Comment on it as a joke, about him looking at other girls. So you don’t embarrass him and on the other hand he’d notice that he’s doing you wrong. If he kept doing the same, you don’t have to do the same; as you aren’t a bad person. Ik it’s hurtful to have a partner looking at other girls. But the only way to feel better is if he noticed he’s doing something wrong without you signifying it or telling him. Believe me if you cheated or looked at other guy just for “revenge” or whatsoever. It’ll make you feel bad, not just about yourself but you’ll still not feel better because you did the same knowing it’s the wrong thing.

I know I have made a joke out of it but couldn't hide the passive aggression. And he just laughed or said aww
as if he pities me for feeling insecure
it's so horrible man i love him so much and feel so incredibly in poison

I think about just having nice evenings on a 'date' talking to someone who likes me and will make me feel desirable, interesting and exciting. Or kissing someone for the first time again even if i have no feelings for them i know they're getting hard (lol)

I won't, i'm not a cheater
but i think about doing it a lot, to deal with being so insecure. My bf is so patient with my jealousy and says lovely things about me & out relationship but i have serious problems with myself

I think about just having nice evenings on a 'date' talking to someone who likes me and will make me feel desirable, interesting and exciting. Or kissing someone for the first time again even if i have no feelings for them i know they're getting hard (lol)

Cause otherwise i'm just a piece of ****

How can I manage this mean desire? Guys and dating have always been the fastest way to give me confidence, but never lasts long. As soon as they get to know me i feel 'found out' like they suddenly discovered i lied about being a wonderful person and will always now have their eye on others. Then i get insecure and push them away for good

I really feel like your not getting the attention you deserve on this forum. Y'all she asked this qs because she wants to solve sh*t not because she WANTS to cheat. And Im sure theres nothing wrong with feeling insecure because how I see it, it just shows that you want him to be for you. Anyways i think I get what you mean, maybe you should probably do things together you dont do much. And when you kiss... make it feel like your first everytime 🤷*♀️ most of all maybe you should tell him that you wasnt a bit of change i don't a change of cute name calling and stuff

Never been in a relationship but hope this helps xx

Thanks for being understanding, i do regret posting this thread and can't delete. x