I’m getting back on track after a week long binge (it was bad) down 14kg & i’ve got 7-8kg to go (i’m hoping 2 of those kgs will come of pretty quickly bc it went up bc of the binge so water retention). thing is i just can’t eat junk food in moderation. i’ve been eating healthy and loving it since nov, no binges, no cravings, healthy enjoyable meals that i want to keep eating even once i hit my goal weight (lifestyle change!). but when i do have ‘junk’ food i just cannot stop myself. my parents gave me an easter egg last week and i thought i’d be able to have a little bit every day but no i literally ate the whole thing in one day (350g of lindt chocolate in ONE DAY ontop of all the other binge food), if i don’t eat any chocolate crisps biscuits i’m absolutely fine but once i have one i just can’t stop. on that binge day i fancied some ritz crackers, i had the serving size of 7 crackers, then ended up eating the whole box!!!
i’m fine not having junk, i genuinely rarely crave it, if i do want sweet stuff i’m happier eating fruit than biscuits and chocolates but food is also a social thing that i want to enjoy (especially once i start eating at maintenance in probably a month or two) and sometimes i DO fancy chocolate, crisps etc and every time i try to honour those cravings i end up eating my whole kitchen?! like with the ritz crackers, i didn’t restrict myself, i allowed myself to eat those crackers but whenever i eat something ‘junk-y’ i want to shovel it all in my mouth rather than just having a serving and moving on with my life
p.s i’m not under eating, i feel SATISFIED and fine overall, i genuinely just can’t control myself with ‘refined’ & processed food. i just avoid it bc i’m find without it but i’m asking this bc sometimes you do want just a LITTLE or you just can’t avoid it bc social life etc
i feel bad that i can’t eat in moderation because my little brother had to bake stuff for a school thing and i refused to eat it because i know i can’t control myself, he looked so sad bless him, in that kind of situation i wish i could’ve just tried one piece, enjoyed it and moved on but the times i’ve tried to do that, i’d go and eat the entire batch :/