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My boyfriend seriously hit me but this is also our kink ! help?

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So I'm a college law student and my boyfriend is a 30 years old respectable lawyer. Let's start with the fact that I really love him and so does he, he always cares about me first, always texts me even if he's at work, cares about my health more than my family does, is supportive with my anxiety/depression, orders for me, etc.

Today after college I decided to put up with my boyfriend. The thing is that we were both very tired. We cuddled a bit on his couch, squeezed and dry humped at first until he got really horny. I like it rough, I like to get pinned down, slapped, pushed, dominated verbally and physically; not into extremes (I like to have my breast untouched no matter what, only a gentle grab and that's all). I told my boyfriend about my kink a whole ago and he was like: Oh, I haven't done this at all, honestly, I don't know if I'm into this but I might try to get a bit of dominant with you. So he started to get horny, pinned me down on the couch, squeezed me, grabbed my hands with his hand and started to slap me from slowly to hard. He had saying thing like : ''have you been nice, do you disagree with me?, are you saying something (as in shut up already)" while slapping me.

I was semi-okay with it. I say semi because he slapped me too many times but I liked it. He, then, got on top of me, hold my hands and gave me a very angry look. We would sometimes stop, chuckle and ask ourselves if we're okay with things we do. He rarely asked me this time but he did a few times though. Fast-forward we do this cuddle-rough-play for a long-ish amount of time.

Then, out of nowhere, grabbed my hand and dragged me off the couch, dragged me to the middle of the room and told me to get on my knees to do oral. The grab shocked me but the rest was okay, I like to look at him, get slapped and continue to do oral. I was fine with this but the grab! I like to get very submissive and choke, spit. After a while we went on the couch to do vaginal sex and I came first. When he heard my I'm-going-to-cum moans slapped my face and ruined the orgasm.

I asked him what's the spot on his penis (I couldn't see clearly because it was late but it was a spot !!! not a line or something from the 'scratch' and he said : Oh, I didn't want to upset you the last time we hooked up (3 weeks ago!) but you scratched my penis badly and every time I showered the wound tissue would fall off and the healing cycle would being again plus the fact that towel moves when I'm drying contributed. I told him: Oh, I thought you've been naughty and did some nasty things out there. He replied: I'm very horrified you'd think I'd do this.Yes, it looked like a tiny dot of a healing wound but I didn't bite his dick...wouldn't that leave a line instead of a dot? It looked like a scab indeed but I couldn't see it clearly. He couldn't come anymore because of what I said and of me proceeding to lay down and breathe like a steamy pot and not wanting to do anything with my vagina/mouth.

After that we went to bed because I wanted to comfortably lay down. I hugged him and said: I came fast because I skipped few doses of my antidepressants. The hell here began: he started to slap my face really badly few times while saying in an angry tone: ''I knew you would do this, I knew you would do a ******** mistake" until I burst out crying and roll over to turn my back on him and the face buried in the bed. He grabbed me, turned me around and slapped me few times again even though I was crying like a newborn! (it's not a big deal to me personally that I skipped a few doses, he knows this). After this, I hugged him and continued to cry even harder while trying to say: you hit too hard. He said: you deserve even worse for doing that. Then he gently rolled over me, grabbed my head and proceed to repeatedly kiss my lips fast asking me if I'm okay. After I calmed down I went in the living room sitting on the couch alone. As I walked through the hall, he was behind me and I nervously laughed about how hard he hit me. He jokingly told me to walk faster in a rude way and I told him: you do that! He slap-punched my vagina because I turn around while saying that...Ouchie

We went to cuddle on the couch and I told him to stop swearing. He said: no, I do whatever I want, I'm the leader. I told him no, not when you're swearing. I'm NOT okay with this. I started to cry again. He said if I stop crying he would stop swearing me from now on. We agreed. He told me he felt really bad when I started to cry and didn't want to cuddle me anymore because I was crying even more and that would make him angry(angrier?). Let's not mention he always pinches me really hard no matter when/what we do. He says he feels good after doing so.So what can I do? I talked to him about it and he said he's only doing this only if provoked, only if I push him first/say a rude thing due to his volcanic temper. He also said if he's coming home and I waste my time instead of cooking dinner he'd get mad and start to swear at me.

I love him so much... If you've reached this far I thank you for reading and I'm yearning to read your comments. I also apologize for my English, I'm not a native. I hope I haven't forgotten something. Thank you again!
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your English is excellent !
Get out of there

Here:


So I'm a college law student and my boyfriend is a 30 years old respectable lawyer. Let's start with the fact that I really love him and so does he, he always cares about me first, always texts me even if he's at work, cares about my health more than my family does, is supportive with my anxiety/depression, orders for me, etc.

Today after college I decided to put up with my boyfriend. The thing is that we were both very tired. We cuddled a bit on his couch, squeezed and dry humped at first until he got really horny. I like it rough, I like to get pinned down, slapped, pushed, dominated verbally and physically; not into extremes (I like to have my breast untouched no matter what, only a gentle grab and that's all). I told my boyfriend about my kink a whole ago and he was like: Oh, I haven't done this at all, honestly, I don't know if I'm into this but I might try to get a bit of dominant with you. So he started to get horny, pinned me down on the couch, squeezed me, grabbed my hands with his hand and started to slap me from slowly to hard. He had saying thing like : ''have you been nice, do you disagree with me?, are you saying something (as in shut up already)" while slapping me.

I was semi-okay with it. I say semi because he slapped me too many times but I liked it. He, then, got on top of me, hold my hands and gave me a very angry look. We would sometimes stop, chuckle and ask ourselves if we're okay with things we do. He rarely asked me this time but he did a few times though. Fast-forward we do this cuddle-rough-play for a long-ish amount of time.

Then, out of nowhere, grabbed my hand and dragged me off the couch, dragged me to the middle of the room and told me to get on my knees to do oral. The grab shocked me but the rest was okay, I like to look at him, get slapped and continue to do oral. I was fine with this but the grab! I like to get very submissive and choke, spit. After a while we went on the couch to do vaginal sex and I came first. When he heard my I'm-going-to-cum moans slapped my face and ruined the orgasm.

I asked him what's the spot on his penis (I couldn't see clearly because it was late but it was a spot !!! not a line or something from the 'scratch' and he said : Oh, I didn't want to upset you the last time we hooked up (3 weeks ago!) but you scratched my penis badly and every time I showered the wound tissue would fall off and the healing cycle would being again plus the fact that towel moves when I'm drying contributed. I told him: Oh, I thought you've been naughty and did some nasty things out there. He replied: I'm very horrified you'd think I'd do this.Yes, it looked like a tiny dot of a healing wound but I didn't bite his dick...wouldn't that leave a line instead of a dot? It looked like a scab indeed but I couldn't see it clearly. He couldn't come anymore because of what I said and of me proceeding to lay down and breathe like a steamy pot and not wanting to do anything with my vagina/mouth.

After that we went to bed because I wanted to comfortably lay down. I hugged him and said: I came fast because I skipped few doses of my antidepressants. The hell here began: he started to slap my face really badly few times while saying in an angry tone: ''I knew you would do this, I knew you would do a ******** mistake" until I burst out crying and roll over to turn my back on him and the face buried in the bed. He grabbed me, turned me around and slapped me few times again even though I was crying like a newborn! (it's not a big deal to me personally that I skipped a few doses, he knows this). After this, I hugged him and continued to cry even harder while trying to say: you hit too hard. He said: you deserve even worse for doing that. Then he gently rolled over me, grabbed my head and proceed to repeatedly kiss my lips fast asking me if I'm okay. After I calmed down I went in the living room sitting on the couch alone. As I walked through the hall, he was behind me and I nervously laughed about how hard he hit me. He jokingly told me to walk faster in a rude way and I told him: you do that! He slap-punched my vagina because I turn around while saying that...Ouchie

We went to cuddle on the couch and I told him to stop swearing. He said: no, I do whatever I want, I'm the leader. I told him no, not when you're swearing. I'm NOT okay with this. I started to cry again. He said if I stop crying he would stop swearing me from now on. We agreed. He told me he felt really bad when I started to cry and didn't want to cuddle me anymore because I was crying even more and that would make him angry(angrier?). Let's not mention he always pinches me really hard no matter when/what we do. He says he feels good after doing so.So what can I do? I talked to him about it and he said he's only doing this only if provoked, only if I push him first/say a rude thing due to his volcanic temper. He also said if he's coming home and I waste my time instead of cooking dinner he'd get mad and start to swear at me.

I love him so much... If you've reached this far I thank you for reading and I'm yearning to read your comments. I also apologize for my English, I'm not a native. I hope I haven't forgotten something. Thank you again!
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Reply 3
Something about his wall of text is quite aesthetically pleasing

Edit: I haven't read the post but if he 'seriously hit' you, you should leave him.
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Urgh. I seriously don't get these types of kinks... How is anyone supposed to know when it's too far?

You're an idiot for asking him, and he's one for going through with it.
Reply 5
Use a safeword.
Why can't you just tell him he's doing too much to take it easy? He probably doesn't know if your crying is apart of the act. Sit down and have a serious convo with him.
Original post by redorange666
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Traffic light safety words.

Red = too far stop everything
Yellow = slow down I'm nearing read
Green = this is great can go for more.

That being said you crying and him continuing is very worrying, it implies he is either careless or actively doesn't care both are very dangerous when engaging in risky kinks, especially the last one and I would say ending things probably is the safest and best thing for you to do.

Now if you have engaged in rape play in the past it is possible he misunderstood and thought that was what was happening in which case I could say that you really need to out right make it clear before hand that it's something you are going to be doing, preferably before hand saying that you want to engage in some rape play. Even so he should be checking on you regularly during (especially with rape play) and the fact he hasn't is also very worrying , it implies once again carelessness or active uncaringness.

At the very lest you need a serious conversation with him talking through adding more safety measure. Remeber SSC ( safe sane consensual) or RASK (risk awareness consensual kink) or some other similar system in place to make things as clear as possible. Consent is a vitally important thing and always will be.
Okay I read it all because it was interesting. Make sure he is aware that he went far too far and that it wasn't just you roleplaying if there is any chance whatsoever that he thought that. If not (aka he deliberately hurt you) then you have to leave him or at least tell him that this is his last chance. Simple.
Reply 9
@swirly @zKlown @KeyToSuccess @Wilfred Little


I'm interested in your thoughts - they may benefit the original poster too.

Many thanks,

S.
Reply 10
Original post by swirly
aint nobody reading that ffs.


It's about rough sex as far as I know

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Reply 11
1 - seems fine so far, he wouldn't necessarily know how far is too far, especially if he's not done it before.
2 - same as above, looks as if he was trying to be dominant.
3 - slapping thing was a bit weird. As for the thing in his penis, you're not a cat, a scratch doesn't have to be a line. You could have accidentally scratched off a bit of skin.

Later on thought it gets weird, but again it might just be that he didn't know what the limit is and took it too far. He looks as if he had a thing for this dominance role too which would explain why he got too much into it. I'd say you need to talk and set some proper limits, tell him what you do and don't like, like the pinching. Also as mentioned above, having a safe word is very important because anything else could be mistaken as part of the act.

Edit:
Basically as long as he respects your wishes and follows the safe word then it's fine. Just make sure to talk to him and figure this out.
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Reply 12
I like the rough consensual stuff to, I feel bad with certain girls though because they bruise so easily. I don't get why he stopped cuddling when you were crying, obviously he should have not continued being rough but surely if you are crying that is precisely the time to be all cuddly and tender? :tongue:

He sounds crap at this stuff.

He is the wrong kind of love abusive love, find someone who can do it properly and abuse you with the love you deserve :smile:
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Okay, I know it's difficult, and I know you love him, but you need to get out of there, this is an abusive relationship. He said 'if you're wasting your time rather than cooking his dinner he'll swear at you', that is sexist, and emotional abuse. You do not have to do anything that you don't want to, and it is not specifically your place to serve him and cook him dinner, it doesn't matter what culture you are in. In terms of during sex, try using a safe word completely unrelated to sex (so, "pineapples", "red" etc) where you HAVE to stop no matter what if one of you says the word for your own safety. This is not love, and you have the right to a happy relationship without fearing your partner or what he'll do to you if you don't get his way. As for him slapping you because you skipped a few doses, that is also abuse.
I beg of you, notify the police and find somewhere safe to stay. This is not a healthy relationship. This may sound overdramatic but the way he is continuing at the moment, you could be putting yourself in danger by staying there.

Original post by auroraborealice
Get out of there

Here:
Original post by donutellme
Urgh. I seriously don't get these types of kinks... How is anyone supposed to know when it's too far?

You're an idiot for asking him, and he's one for going through with it.


google 'safe word'. it's acceptable until one of the partner says the safe word. generally if the partner is getting hit outside the bedroom it's abuse/too far.
What they said about sorting out a safeword scheme before engaging in this sort of play.

Without that, it is difficult to know if someone really wants you to stop... but there really isn't an excuse for his behaviour after 'the hell here began'.
How are people okay with what just happened?

Even if you skip the fact that she's into this kinky stuff and asked to be dominated it does NOT give him the right to act like a dick, especially if you read the last two paragraphs you'll see some of the stuff he did was not in a sexual setting either e.g. slapping her when she forgot her antidepressants or pinching her etc.

OP, please get out of this relationship. It sounds abusive. Please stay safe x
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Original post by Shumaya
Something about his wall of text is quite aesthetically pleasing

Edit: I haven't read the post but if he 'seriously hit' you, you should leave him.


Totally agreed with you. No point of loving someone that could totally treat you like a trash! You deserve better GIRL!
Original post by TheGreatImposter
How are people okay with what just happened?

Even if you skip the fact that she's into this kinky stuff and asked to be dominated he does NOT give him the right to act like a dick, especially if you read the last two paragraphs you'll see some of the stuff he did was not in a sexual setting either e.g. slapping her when she forgot her antidepressants or pinching her etc.

OP, please get out of this relationship. It sounds abusive. Please stay safe x


Yea just simply get out. Hitting a woman doesnt make him as a man. And hitting you once does prove that he is not worth it. Whatever reason he has, hitting you is always UNREASONABLE. Better pick up your emotions and get the hell out of there!! NOW!
Original post by SA-1
@swirly @zKlown @KeyToSuccess @Wilfred Little


I'm interested in your thoughts - they may benefit the original poster too.

Many thanks,

S.

This would all have been avoided with a safety word. Although the guy went excessive clearly.

Ground rules needed I guess.
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