So it ended last night.
I'm hurt and very upset. I don't know how to deal with all of this, frankly; it all seems so sudden.
He was saving up to visit me this summer, and we both saw that as being the thing that would be able to save our relationship, after deciding that the lack of physicality was one of the main factors in his loss of feelings. But his family were having financial troubles recently, and he had to use the money he had saved up for the trip to pay for a family member's operation. So he has literally no money left, according to him. I found all this out last night, but he told me that this only happened recently. So there'll be no visit this summer. Or this year, either; I don't know why he couldn't see me at another time that's not summer. But the next time he's be able to visit would be next summer, as re-raising the funds in the space of this month would be almost impossible. That added to the increasing prices of travelling as it gets closer to the time of booking. I said I would pay towards it if he needed me to, if that would mean that I got to meet him this summer like it was meant to happen, but he said that even with some money, it probably wouldn't be enough.
That would have been alright, but he said that all of that, combined with the change of feelings for me, means that he's not willing to wait for me until next year. He's not willing to stay with me in the relationship until then. But I understand that. Personally, I would be willing to wait and stay in the relationship if it meant I could be with him and see him next year. But I guess we're different in that respect.
He didn't string me along any further, though. He's been quite good in that respect, and he hasn't given me any false hope. He said that he definitely still wants to meet me, and he will next summer. And he said that maybe when we meet next year, then that could spark the feelings back. But that's all hypothetical.
I just feel like he's given up; like he doesn't care anymore. I mean he's lost feelings, which was one thing to come to terms with (it still hasn't sunk in properly), but now the impossibility of meeting this summer, when I was really excited about it, and I'd told all my friends about him recently (finally), and on top of that the break up - all within the space of 3 days, when I had no clue about any of it - makes it all really hard for me to swallow.
I know I'm still raw. I know it will take time to heal. I just don't like the idea of him falling in love with someone else..
But there you have it. A less than desirable conclusion to the original problem.