Been wanting to do this for a while, not the fresher's blog as such but just have another little blog thing going as i find it helpful to mark down things in stages so i know where i'm at. I liked my little accidental A level one and I've tried diaries and word logs on my computer but it always feels a bit hollow talking to yourself so. Didn't know where to put this tbh, could have put it in GYG but tbh (this will probably sound terrible) my 'grades' (since we dont have grades in first year, or marks actually) don't really need growing (academic stuff has always been the one thing im kind of constant at and do well at even though my MH is terrible so im not sure how that works), obviously i can always improve but the main thing holding me back from the whole 'uni experience' is mental stuff so that is what i am trying to work on (probably spent the same amount of time in MH appointments since i have been here as everyone else has spent in pubs and bars). So this probably could have been in Mental Health but i figure i clog up that forum enough as it is anyway
I am due to start therapy soon (say soon but am on a waiting list so how soon soon actually is is anyone's guess) and i am also on antidepressants for depression and apparently because it will help my anxiety as well. These haven't been nice but i'm not going to talk about that at length right now. This is one of the main reason's for doing this as i don't want free pizza (
@CheeseIsVeg ) but i would like to get into a somewhat slightly more positive frame of mind before therapy starts so i can get the most out of it.
@The_Lonely_Goatherd's blog is something which i have always found very inspirational so taking the rough format from that:
23/10/18 What I'm grateful for today Grateful that so far this illness hasn't turned into a chest infection *touch wood* haven't got a temperature yet so
A random act of kindness I've done Told someone inrl how proud and happy for them i was (because i am)
A random act of kindness someone has done for me my pans went 'missing' so my housemate called a housemeeting to try and get them back (a 'panhunt'
). My pans have now been located (albeit in another uni accommodation) so hopefully they shall be returned to me shortly.
@Deyesy and
@ParadoxSocks have also been very nice to me today
Things I did well um not much, took a bath for the first time in 3 days at 4am this morning if that counts
Something I could improve on sleep, not sleeping well at all
What I've achieved today done some more of my uni work for the first module
What I've done to look after my mental health taken my pills even though i didnt want to?
Something I have to look forward to need to think about that one more
That's it really, this won't interest probably 99% of the tsr population but tagged some people who might be interested
will probably forget i have made this tomorrow since the only reason im awake is that i feel very ill and most things i do at 2am i forget i have done the next day. Was going to do this at some point and figured that not being able to breathe through your mucus was as good a time as any