Why am I so behind everyone else

I’m a 16 year old and I’ve never done anything, I’ve never had a crush on anyone, I’ve never kissed anyone, and I’ve never had sex and most of my peers have. My friend lost her virginity at 14 and I just feel so behind everyone else. I want to be in a relationship so badly but I have never been attracted to anyone and no one is ever attracted to me. Im a lesbian, and I know this because I only want relationships with girls. Straight dating culture where I live is so easy, you just snap a guy and it’s automatically assumed as flirting but as a lesbian I cannot do the same with girls it just would not work. Im really insecure about myself and maybe that could play a role in me not having a crush on anyone but I don’t know. Im so scared that I might be aromantic because I want a relationship more than anything, I would chop off my arm to be a normal teenager. A straight, secure, average attractive teenage girl. I literally can’t deal with it it hurts so much when my friends call me ‘virgin’ as a joke because I’m so scared it’s gonna stay that way for ages, I don’t want to be one of those people whose never held hands at 23 years old. Even my younger brother has a girlfriend. I just feel so left out from all of my peers who talk about sex and relationships, and I feel like I’ll never catch up with everyone and I’ll remain lonely for the rest of my life. It makes me cry knowing I’ll never have a normal teenage romance.

I’m a 16 year old and I’ve never done anything, I’ve never had a crush on anyone, I’ve never kissed anyone, and I’ve never had sex and most of my peers have. My friend lost her virginity at 14 and I just feel so behind everyone else. I want to be in a relationship so badly but I have never been attracted to anyone and no one is ever attracted to me. Im a lesbian, and I know this because I only want relationships with girls. Straight dating culture where I live is so easy, you just snap a guy and it’s automatically assumed as flirting but as a lesbian I cannot do the same with girls it just would not work. Im really insecure about myself and maybe that could play a role in me not having a crush on anyone but I don’t know. Im so scared that I might be aromantic because I want a relationship more than anything, I would chop off my arm to be a normal teenager. A straight, secure, average attractive teenage girl. I literally can’t deal with it it hurts so much when my friends call me ‘virgin’ as a joke because I’m so scared it’s gonna stay that way for ages, I don’t want to be one of those people whose never held hands at 23 years old. Even my younger brother has a girlfriend. I just feel so left out from all of my peers who talk about sex and relationships, and I feel like I’ll never catch up with everyone and I’ll remain lonely for the rest of my life. It makes me cry knowing I’ll never have a normal teenage romance.