should I tell my boyfriend?

You should also maybe mention that you’re struggling mentally and turning to alcohol because of this.. and please, I know from personal experience that alcohol is not your friend when you’re feeling fragile and using it to compensate for or to dull down any sort of emotions that are plaguing you… if you’re finding yourself turning to alcohol to try making yourself happy then all you will do is amplify the negative feelings, yes alcohol will help place them on the back burner.. until the next day when you’re hung over and whatever is bothering you is still there, but now it’ll seem 10 times worse because of the sauce wearing off.. then it becomes very easy to carry on drinking to keep numbing your conscience… before you know it you’ll quite possibly have a dependency to it… sounds extreme but it’s so easy to fall into the trap.. as I said.. I know from experience and when I look back I wish I would have just spoken to people and got stuff sorted… not trying to preach so I apologise if that’s how it sounds, just that I wouldn’t like to see someone else go down that road for something that’s easily rectified

you're not preaching at all, thank you for the kind words honestly. It makes me feel better in a way I have to say. I am actively aware that it doesn't help me and have been seeing somebody about it as well as trying to be conscious of my own emotions and drinking levels... it just gets awfully frustrating to feel yourself going back on the hard work you've put in in the meantime