Hi everyone. I know this is already starting off to a shallow start, but I just couldn't get rid of this nagging feeling at the back of my mind about this. I have been with my bf for nearly a year and he is in one word: an angel. Literally will go to any lengths to make me happy, shows more interest in my day and always thinks of the most creative gifts and words to say. He is really cute and I fell in love with his radiating kindness and his good looks.
We're both really young and in uni, but all my friends love how cute we are together and how much effort we both put into our relationship with our gifts and how wholesome he is. We're also doing long distance. The only "issue" is he's small for a guy which is a thing I didn't even notice when I first started dating him. But somehow everyone cares and now I also do. I always am quick to defend girls my age belitting short men and saying they would never go for a short guy because they're just kids.
I'm 5'2 and for some reason because we're both short everyone sees us as fun sized and a small couple. I also wonder what it would be like to date a tall guy who can pick me up, protect me in clubs and have a nice height difference with. Someone I can see myself marrying. Sometimes I get a little bit embarrassed or nervous to introduce my bf to my friends because I know inside they will be thinking how short he is. I've even had people tell me I can do way better, because the guys that have tried to move to me at uni have all been taller.
This is literally the most shallowest thing ever. There are girls out there screaming for 6ft men yet getting cheated on by them, and my bf will literally give me the world if i ask for it. I don't know what to do. I know inside I should let him go and find the most amazing love HE rightfully deserves, but at the same time I know i can never find anyone as great as him, and I'm scared I won't if I leave him due to karmic reasons lol. At the same time I'm also so young and who knows, maybe everything is supposed to happen for a reason. My parents don't even know about him and would totally flip out if they found out I had a bf right now. Is it worth all the hiding and sneaking around to not work out in the end?