I've tried googling this but every website seems to tell me I must be a misogynist. Whilst I could be a misogynist, I don't think I am.
I have cried a lot about not having any female friends. I have 2 close platonic relationships with men. They are both always telling me to make friends with women more.
I have lots of surface level friendships with people of the all genders. However, I only get invited to things by my male friends. They are the only ones that reach out to me and thus I feel comfortable reaching out to them.
Last year, I really made a big effort to hang out with other women. I invited people to things, I included myself in conversations etc. Most of the time I either got turned down or I ended up getting the feeling I was making them uncomfortable. I don't think all women are like this, but the experience was demoralising.
I have had a handful of close relationships with women in the past but they all ended quite badly. The problem is definitely me but I'm having a hard time figuring out what the problem is.
I'm really close to my mum and a female family friend, so I have women influences in my life, just none my own age.
I make an effort to hang out with my guy friends (and sometimes big mixed gender groups) every week, as socialising is good for my mental health. However, I know that hanging out with men most of the time is not a good look.
I guess I just wish I could hang out with women more. I feel a lot of anxiety around women these days, I always feel like I'm going to mess up.
Anyway, suggestions on how fix the problem would really be appreciated. Thank you.