I hope some of you can slap some reason into me, I feel like I'm going insane.
First of all, I'm 20 and my current boyfriend is my first relationship (I know, I know, late bloomer). Things are going really well but at the back of my mind there's always been horrible thoughts bubbling about how I'm so much more sexually inexperienced than he is (he hasn't had that many, but more than zero!), and because he's the first person I've done regular sexual stuff with, I'm rubbish and don't know what I'm doing. I've read various tips and advice and I think I'm slowly improving...I told him frankly what I felt and he couldn't have been more reassuring and lovely, he told me I don't understand how much he cares about me and that it's a good thing I'm inexperienced as that means I'm not a whore.
However, the other day I was on facebook and came across his ex's and she is STUNNING, beautiful face, has bigger boobs than me, is an Ann Summer's rep AND this is the worst thing...she has a double tongue piercing!! This reinforces my insecurities tenfold because I know girls only get tongue piercings to give better blowjobs and blowjobs are my main insecurity because I've always felt hopeless at them
So now I keep imagining how she was so much better at them than me and the many many orgasms he must have had from them, and it makes me want to cry. I feel so inadequate.
(Additional info: He told me he's been cheated on twice and I'm sure she was one of them, he only dated her for a few months).
I just need someone else's perspective on this. I know I'm being incredibly insecure and it's a massive turn-off, that's why I could never tell him all this. She just keeps haunting me in my mind.