Feel so lonely and unwanted by everyone :'(

hey you could always do some volunteering or get a part time job that fits around your lectures/holidays!! and i bet if you say one night to someone do you want to stay in with drinks and watch a movie they will, or they'll promise another night! you can always email me if you get lonely- [email protected]
oh and trust me your town CANNOT be more boring then mine haha, find some work there so you can keep yourself occupied instead of staying at home and having to think about how bored you are, and you will meet new people!!!
xxx

This is just to get my feelings out.

But recently i've come to notice that no one really bothers with me anymore.
And i'm always the one who has to talk first or i have to be the one to arrange things, even if someone else was the one to ask about hanging out first, otherwise they wouldnt even follow through with it.

I go out every now and then on weekends with friends, as of uni in the week.
but i still feel lonely
I also recently got broken up 2months ago, by a guy i considered my best friend and thought was amazing.
And because he was my first boyfriend it took me 18 years to feel comfortable with someone and he was the first guy i ever loved, because of how close we we're and how much we enjoyed each others company and i did think we would of worked out when uni came and it would be ok, but now we're not together and he just acts hot and cold with me, and it hurts because i still have some feelings for him and do miss his company

It takes me ages to feel comfortable around people, because i've never really had friends that would contact me every second of the day and ask me to come out or to see how i am.
I used to always enjoy my own company and was used to the whole seeing friends when i can thing,
But now since i got broken up with, i've just felt so lonely :'(

I really just wish i had someone there for me
because i feel like no one cares unless they have nothing to do, or no one better to talk or see.
And im just fed up of it

I'm fed up of clubbing now, and drinking all the time to have fun, i miss casual nights in with drinks, watching movies or playing stupid drinking games.
I also get told to go make new friends, but my town is so boring and people my age(19) are either chav's who go clubbing and wasting money on drinks every night, or they all go to different uni's which i can travel to see unless i have holidays but its still boring in this town..

I just miss having those people who care about you, and want to see or spend time with you.