I've been with my girlfriend for 7 years and throughout our whole relationship I've had mental health problems (schizophrenia, anxiety, and occasionally depression). I know I'm often not fun to be around but I want to know if my girlfriend's reaction is normal or not.
We live together and I understand that it can be hard to live with someone with mental health problems. It's like she no longer sympathises with me at all, I get that it's been a long time but is that normal? I can be crying my eyes out on the sofa blasting music through headphones trying to block out the voices and she will totally ignore me. I keep asking her to talk to me as one of the best things I've found to block them out is having a conversation with someone but she never initiates it and seems annoyed when I try to talk to her - because of this I've mostly given up trying to talk and will probably damage my hearing with the loud music.
Yesterday they were being extremely aggressive so I told her. She was on the computer and asked "what I want her to do about it", I told her I want a cuddle in bed but she was too busy. She also wouldn't let me go lie in bed because she didn't trust me so I just lay on the sofa crying again with the music.
I know it's been a long time, but I've always been honest with her, she knew what she was getting into. But do you think this is a normal reaction over the years? I just want a cuddle, even a hug and a conversation, some kind of support because I find things really hard to deal with on my own.
And yes, I am on medication. And yes, I am seeing my psychiatrist to discuss medication increase/changes soon.
Mods: this is about my relationship rather than asking for mental health advice so I think this is the right section.
Sorry about the length. Any advice appreciated.