Why do I feel so different to everyone else?

Ask yourself this: Is it bad that your different to other people? But anyways I would go and check it out with a doctor or therapist of some kind. I would to know what to give as answer, but frankly I'm no professional and I would be chatting crap. So go see a professional they might diagnose you with something. To me, it sounds like you have got some sort of OCD or habit-like conditions (these habit-like conditions are often associated with people with autism as they also like to have things in a certain routine and manner)...but hey what do I know?

Yo, don't be bad for feeling the same way as 90% of TSR. If it doesn't come naturally to you there are plenty of opportunities to learn this thing called "social interaction"

I'm kind of like how you described too. I have great difficulty in communicating with my peers, which has unfortunately severely affected my ability to express just about anything. My natural voice is extremely weak and quiet, which makes it very difficult to socialise or do a lot of other things that most people take for granted. Even simple things like saying "hello" or "how are you" or "what did you get for this answer" are very difficult for me to say. I've tried for a long time now to help it, tried speech therapy, but have not been able to do anything about it. And it's not really my confidence that's the issue - I'm not afraid at all around people, I have great things to say, but I am just simply too quiet to be heard.

Living with this problem since about year 8 has made it very difficult to make friends, or do much at all that involves talking really, and it's been very tough. It took a very long time, but eventually I've learnt to accept it - and I've been able to make minor yet progressive improvements. I still struggle a lot, but since recently I've adapted this mindset which allows me to be completely independent of anyone else, pretty much. I no longer feel down when I am alone or not heard anymore. It will sound sad to most, but I can honestly say that without friends I've been able to think for myself and I have a clearer vision of my future trajectory because of it. I feel like I am completely free to do what I want with my life, and I feel happy. I still need to talk to someone in person every now again (mostly my family), but that's due to the genetics of a homo sapien that make us feel lonely if we don't socialise with some other human being every now and again.

So I guess what I'm saying is that you can eventually learn to live with being introverted or whatever problems you might have - and maybe use them to your advantage. I know exactly what I want to do as a career, where I want to study, what I want to study, exactly where I want to be by age 30, what I want to achieve - and ultimately, what I want to do with my life. It's hard to explain but I feel like every day just working towards my goals are positive and fulfilling, and I feel happy because of knowing this - even if I'm pretty much completely alone for most of the day. I don't ever sulk in self pity, I always figure out how to move on and continue working harder. It's got to the point where I don't ever feel depressed or sad if someone starts harassing me.

Also what I've learnt to probably be the most important thing, is time is anyone's most precious resource. Time will come and go if you allow it. I open as many doors as I can each day, and I have a plan of what I want to do with my time. Sure, I'm on TSR right now, but TSR is my way of sort of winding down after a long day.

Thanks for reading.

it could be something that you overcome however it could potentially be a mild form of ocd or maybe autism? my friend tom has aspergers and he exhibits some of the traits and compulsions you described, it might be worth checking out?
side note/ whether you fit into a category or not, you are still fantastic and i among many other people value u for being yourself, never change just to make other people happy or comfortable or anything. you do not live to entertain them bud, i know exactly where you’re coming from

This is probably going to sound weird but I just feel so different to everyone else. I can't understand things that other people can, and people often can't understand what I can. I find it difficult to express how I'm feeling a lot of the time, and sometimes I become irritated because I can't comprehend how another person is feeling. I have certain routines that make me feel happy, and if I don't follow these routines I stress out. I find social interaction difficult and daunting whereas others don't. When I'm out in public I constantly click my fingers or crack my knuckles as a subconscious habit, and people give me weird looks sometimes. I'm really picky with food and again, what I eat follows a routine. I'm also extremely introverted, to the point where I'll ignore people in order to be alone. I don't know why I'm making this thread, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed (well, not overwhelmed - I can't think of the right word) and need to get it off my chest. It'd also be nice to know if anyone else has ever felt the same way.

Thanks for typing all of that out. I relate to quite a few things you said and I appreciate it

Have you been tested for autism or Asperger's? I have high-functioning autism and I can relate to most of these. There's nothing wrong with being like this. Maybe you're just going through a difficult period. I felt like this a couple of years ago and it really brought me down. My main problem was constantly worrying about what other people thought of me, and almost censoring myself because of it. Everything I said or did had to be carefully calculated. I almost felt like a computer trying to act like a human.

Try to talk to as many people as possible. Don't worry too much about what they think - there's nothing to lose but everything to gain.

This is probably going to sound weird but I just feel so different to everyone else. I can't understand things that other people can, and people often can't understand what I can. I find it difficult to express how I'm feeling a lot of the time, and sometimes I become irritated because I can't comprehend how another person is feeling. I have certain routines that make me feel happy, and if I don't follow these routines I stress out. I find social interaction difficult and daunting whereas others don't. When I'm out in public I constantly click my fingers or crack my knuckles as a subconscious habit, and people give me weird looks sometimes. I'm really picky with food and again, what I eat follows a routine. I'm also extremely introverted, to the point where I'll ignore people in order to be alone. I don't know why I'm making this thread, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed (well, not overwhelmed - I can't think of the right word) and need to get it off my chest. It'd also be nice to know if anyone else has ever felt the same way.

I used to feel that way as well; feeling different to others (but for other reasons). My advice is check this out https://www.16personalities.com/ and do the test. Someone made a post on it on TSR a while back and It gave me a really interesting but weirdly accurate breakdown of myself which I thought was pretty cool. I think most importantly it gives you a general outline of how others approach life and benefit society.

Tell me what you got afterwards and what you think

This is probably going to sound weird but I just feel so different to everyone else. I can't understand things that other people can, and people often can't understand what I can. I find it difficult to express how I'm feeling a lot of the time, and sometimes I become irritated because I can't comprehend how another person is feeling. I have certain routines that make me feel happy, and if I don't follow these routines I stress out. I find social interaction difficult and daunting whereas others don't. When I'm out in public I constantly click my fingers or crack my knuckles as a subconscious habit, and people give me weird looks sometimes. I'm really picky with food and again, what I eat follows a routine. I'm also extremely introverted, to the point where I'll ignore people in order to be alone. I don't know why I'm making this thread, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed (well, not overwhelmed - I can't think of the right word) and need to get it off my chest. It'd also be nice to know if anyone else has ever felt the same way.

Have you been diagnosed with autism? Because these are all signs of autism and it sounds very likely that you're on the autistic spectrum. That's not a bad thing but accepting it might make you feel better about yourself. What you described in this post is the basic outline of someone with autism. My friend has autism and he had the exact same issues. I would recommend getting tested becauee you will be able to access support then

I got 'Logistician Personality'. That's a pretty cool test and my result is scarily accurate.

This is probably going to sound weird but I just feel so different to everyone else. I can't understand things that other people can, and people often can't understand what I can. I find it difficult to express how I'm feeling a lot of the time, and sometimes I become irritated because I can't comprehend how another person is feeling. I have certain routines that make me feel happy, and if I don't follow these routines I stress out. I find social interaction difficult and daunting whereas others don't. When I'm out in public I constantly click my fingers or crack my knuckles as a subconscious habit, and people give me weird looks sometimes. I'm really picky with food and again, what I eat follows a routine. I'm also extremely introverted, to the point where I'll ignore people in order to be alone. I don't know why I'm making this thread, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed (well, not overwhelmed - I can't think of the right word) and need to get it off my chest. It'd also be nice to know if anyone else has ever felt the same way.