I can't keep up with Islam. What do I do?

Stop trying. Live your life the way you want. Your parents are just going to have to accept it. Sure they'll freak out but is it more important that they're happier or you're happier?

They can't control you forever ffs, you'll be an adult some day.

Why can't you keep up with daily prayers? Every prayer takes around 5minutes, 5x5=25minutes of your day. I am a muslim and I try my best to pray because I am thankful for what God has given me. Living in the West in this century I have a life better than 99% of those who have lived now and before me.

Try not to hate your religion just because your parents are being proper parents (forcing marriage). Islam says Parents shouldn't force their children especially if they are nearly adults

My mum says that the Prophet says that you should get your kids married as soon as they enter puberty -_-

I can't tell my parents either, they'd have a psychological or physiological breakdown immediately :|
The reason is that up until this point, despite the fact that I've tried my best to conform to their 'standards' of being a good, peaceful person from the inside and the outside - and implemented every Islamic thing that I thought was good like dressing modestly, praying to God, helping others (I still do all this) but then I look at the community and the people in it that continuously bash me for my views. My own mother does .-. And it honestly discourages and depresses me so much that I tried so f***ing hard to be a good Muslim and everyone said I was an ideal Muslim girl but now that I'm older and going to uni next year, did I realize how much I was missing...
I'm honestly just sick of having to hear everyone point me out on all these rules that I'm not adhering to - or don't want to adhere to.
• I dress modestly, but I can't express myself.
• I can't openly have a relationship with anyone that I want. Especially when my parents go all gung-ho about where he's from (particularly his race and religion because then, it's a straight up no.) My only 'marriage choices' are limited to Muslim men above 25...
• I seriously can't deal with the early marriage aspect. My mother wants me to get married to a muslim dude and never once told me about the horrifying aspect of it. Things like the first marriage night. And I'm f***ing asexual. I don't want a random stranger raping me on the first night of our marriage, jfc. And my parents wouldn't even object by saying that it's a blessed thing and HAS to happen or else God will curse you. -_- (why would God curse you if he loves you...?"
I don't even know this person, how do I know they'll be right for the rest of my life..?
• I can't keep up with the daily prayers. I just can't.
• I get depressive thoughts just thinking about it.
• I'm just sick of all the rules and rituals and miss the freedom. I know some of you will be like this is necessary and 'the dunya is a test, sister!' But for real though, I need proof .-. I got serious trust issues regarding facts.
I was thinking that maybe I need a break from Islam and just need to live a little. Especially at uni. When I'm all by myself with plenty of time to explore myself and maybe then I'll truly find if Islam is for me or not.

What're your thoughts on this? Civil, educated suggestions please.

Get to uni. Talk to lots of different but serious-minded people. Through discussion you should move towards a better understanding of the person you are and what you want - and can give - in your life. Clearly, you are not like your parents; what was/is good enough for them is not necessarily going to fit with your reading of the world. Once I was a Christian believer, now I am atheist, but the moral teachings of Jesus/Issa are still my guiding lights in the way I treat others. I just don’t need the bribe of going to heaven. To me all religion is a means of social control, made by men for the continuation of their coercive dominance. All religion looks more and more like a set of fairy stories to me. Nothing stands up to any examination by science in the modern age. Consider the teaching on evolution in your own religion: it is manifestly absurd. Christianity has given up on its version and now says that Genesis (the first book of the Bible, beginning with the creation of the world - is an allegory. They didn’t say that two hundred years ago when they were preaching to ignorant peasants though! ) False arguments - invariably ‘supported’ by holy writings are set against science. Having a faith that relies on your suspending your critical faculties is bound to create an irresolvable tension - even agony - in you. Ultimately, religions are restrictive, attempt to do your thinking for you and depend on your unquestioning obedience. But they are all different! Is one right and the rest wrong/flawed? To me they are all of another age - an age when the guru, priest, imam, rabbi had all the answers. Go out there! Be true to your moral principles - all religions have good moral teachings - listen, learn - and learn to love yourself through self-discovery. Bon courage!

Thats not true... my auntie got married when she was 30..

It obviously differs from person to person

What does Islam mean? It means peace, or submission, or submission to peace, or peace coming from submission.

But submission here isn't a negative thing, Islam discourages what will turn you against peace. Islam believes that sex and relationships are best done through trustworthy marriages, and that peace comes from this, heartbreak comes from rushing into relationships with people who are unfaithful (see both the senses?)

If you study early Islamic history many Muslims marry Christians, make alliances with Jews and so on, I don't believe marrying someone outside your race is 'Un Islamic' How could it be? There is such a massive diversity in races of Muslims that surely it is a nonsense to say. Plus Islam recognises the Muslim who sins through internal disbelief but practices externally, being a Muslim who is unfaithful is surely worse than marrying a faithful Christian or even non-believer?

I think your parents have a twisted, superstitious view of Islam which is unfortunately very common

True.. and plese dont leave Islam! Plus, try to do dua to Allah

im sort of in the same boat.
My parents are religious but have never imposed it on me much. I never wore hijab nor am I pushed to perform religious acts everyday but its is still too conservative for me. I've have been 'away' from the religion and its acts for about a year now trying to figure it out my self and figure my own self along the way as well. Maybe distancing yourself and going to uni would be the best option.

Precisely But the thing is, my parents are just set on the fact that marrying outside of my race will 'make my future children non-muslims' and hence ruin their repute in front of God :| I agree with the other points you mentioned.

And also, how do you build trustworthy relationships when you don't even know the person? I want to know the person I want to spend my entire life with. I don't want a life-long sperm donor, I want a life partner.